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My own flesh and blood,
How can you not care?
Not even love me
I hide in fear
When he snaps
He will kill us all
Nightmares and try to sleep
With one eye open
Helps me stay alive
All I do is cry in pain
Its torture
The pain is total agony
But my silent screams
don’t mean anything
No one can hear me
No one feels my pain
I still suffer
The mental abuse
And the mental illness
He might have
He hides it with his
“Fake” personality 
But in reality through my doors
He’s an evil monster
Scared and hurt
I still stand to suffer
And to hurt myself
Just to ease my pain
Still doesn’t satisfy me
Yet the tears fall
Knowing the memories
Will never fade
And will it finally go though 
My head that he
Never loved me