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Slip and slide through the pages of my mind

Look for the words you’ll never find

The ones I threw away.

Float through the story of my life

Choke on the works that cut like a knife

All the words I won’t say.

The ones I can’t erase.

Do everything you can to see the light in my smile

To see the bright in my eyes

Before it fades away.

I saw a boy surrounded by roses.
They were pink like sweet evening clouds.

He stepped out of the beauty and with open arms.
I lost myself in his comfort.

And then he whispered…

Stay with me.
See everything I can be.
If we close our eyes now,
We will never have to leave this heaven.

The appeal of his words helped me to stay together.

Where your eyes meet mine is where I want to be

In this air

In this minute.

When your hand reaches for mine is what I want to feel

Under this sky

Under these stars.

Soft spoken whispers of promises is what I want to hear

In this silence

In this serenity.

Your smile is what I want to see

During this light

During this heaven.

Standing in life’s straight line only until my glass is half empty

and the intolerable lull of the days becomes the sad anthem to my life

as I spin in circles and close my eyes to drown out the lost loves that left me tainted and

alone and wondering infamously why I couldn’t be someone else and where the countless

His golden curly hair hides his face.
At times, as if to block out the world.
His ears appear missing as they are engulfed with the thick locks of his escape.
His brows are hidden beneath a covering, keeping the emotions sacred and mysterious.
If they were to slant inward in pure black rage, no one would know.
If they were to rise in utter disbelief, no one would know.

From the street I saw a window into an empty, white room.
The light was on as if someone would return soon.
Or had just left.
The mystery of emptiness squinted my eyes.
A stinging reverie.
White walls.
Bright lights.
Vacant.
The sight was gone from my eyes and left in my thoughts.
What story could be told from blank walls of white?

Does you heart break when I’m screaming so loud that my throat goes raw?

I heard your voice for just three minutes.

Three minutes took it all away.

Do your tears fall as black runs so hard down my face that I can’t make out my own reflection in front of me?

No one mattered for three minutes.

Are your arms week from the lifeless weight of holding me up every time I fall?

You taught me to be beautiful.
You told me everyday I was gorgeous.
You said to me that I was radiant.
I see me, in you.

You said that I was yours.
You showed me I was your world.
You gave me all you had.
I see you, in me.

You talked softer.
You loved deeper.
You wanted forever.
I see me, in you.

Your sea green eyes sparkle.
Your soft skin lightly glows.

I write poetry when I’m sad…
I write best when I’m angry.
I think it may be because I can never say how I really feel.
I write about you.

The tears smudge my words because when I think of you I cry.
I dream about things I can’t have.
I know it’s because I made it this way…
I dream about you.

The tears dampen my pillows and stain my eyes…
I think about the past.

Each sentence beautifully came alive as my heart lay in front of me on the page.

I wrote her,
So delicately because she was nothing less.

As I wrote,
I could only picture her face,

And I missed her.

I let go of my single sheet of paper and watched it float to the surface of the table.

Tiny droplets fell atop the lined page.

The words told me that I love everything she is,

A note written on plain paper.
A stolen kiss eloquently placed on her pink sparkling cheek.
A single purple flower hidden in a paisley printed bag.
A small, gentle hand to wisp the dark chestnut strands from her face.
A soft spoken bliss whispered into her memory.
A rich chocolate kiss deep inside the down feathers of her plum coat.

A note could mend the broken.

I’m sorry that the sharp words she said cut you so deeply.
I wish you wouldn’t have let her eyes define you.
I saw you let yourself go until you were gone.
I watched you close your eyes and breathe, as if that would take it all away.
I listened to your tears fall from your mind and flood that ground she walked on while you tip toed on the shattered glass she broke around you.