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My life is dying

but love lasts forever.

My heart may burn in the ashes of my defeat

but as long as I can still feel your heartbeat

close to me

I can continue to live.

My dear

Death departed when I started falling over

Make me faint hearted. It’s retarded.

The lies, many you told

 Many you tried to make sense of.

It just bounced back in your face

Ttrying to build a fence up.

Boy you just tense up

Make you hold back all emotion till the ocean

The tides rise. No denies, take back your lies.

On further trial

In denial of all the words you stand behind ‘em.
 

In the darkness. The bitter cold.

My bones freeze to the last memories I own.

The pain leaves blood stained to my hands. My face

Cannot replace the light with the fate I have to face.

I walk this fucked up road alone

Without passion to hold my name as my own.

Just grit my teeth and bare it.

Holding no freedom with these shackles 2 wear it.

Cut a smile across my face. Taste the poison in my teeth.

Grind the fear across this place and forget why I'm alive.

So one more question my dear girl. One last breath before I seize it.

Do you think I have the strenth to stand over you and squeeze it

out of ur lungs, before the day is done.

You are alive my dear girl and there is no reason for pleading.

Or filling your lungs with stale air and start your heavy grieving.

In the darkness. The bitter cold.

when I'm standing here alone

With your blood across my face

Tell me what I have left to say

I'm running out of rhymes. I've got no more words to speak

So tell me my dear girl. If you're dead how do you sleep?
 

Looking down

at the world

gripping my soul.

Mending it for the moment.

The stitches disolve

Tears start to fall.

My world's crashing down

It is all your fault.

I was there when you cried

I was there when you lied

I took the shot

all for nothing

but at the time

I loved you so much.

You swallowd your lies.

Now im sitting in a lot

stitching my heart

one piece at a time.
 

I said it's dangerous fo you to step closer.

Dangerous and your not close enough

I'm falling for your love

And the sky is falling on us

So I'm pushing you further

Begging gravity to hold us down

The sky is not enough

Lets givin to our touch

Just let go

Flying past the colors of your eyes

It's just a little dangerous

Let's just think it's right

And fall into the sky.
 

The stains on my hands

Match the look on my face.

With the stains of blood

The people we cannot replace.

The sun's drifting away to fast

To even save my conscious mind

No place or time

So give me a break

Let me run my fate

Till I pull the trigger

And the light cant excape.
 

Cold, Red, Burning eyes
What it means to be alive
Forever lost inside my mind
Ashes speak for broken smiles.
Small and sharp life ticks by
Never wished to see you cry
Or see the hurt inside your eyes
You stopped my heart, and twisted time
Mixed up my rhymes
Broke me inside
Who knew love could be a crime.
 

Nine years gone too far.

Left dozens of scars

 Memories she wished were erased.

Screams filled with fear

"Take me out of here"

Her soul feeling dead and misplaced.

Deep inside

A girl was alive

 Slowly dying away.

She couldn't escape

Her eyes filled with hate

Nothing could break through the sky.

As it ends

Hher life was a terrible lie.

“If you could name that star, what would it be?” He quietly whispered in her ear while pointing to a star among millions. His lips grazed her ear tickling her heart. She laughed a little in the darkness, wrapping her arms around his waist.

“I wouldn’t name it at all…” Her eyes scanned the sky. Her face became serene all emotion vanished. He looked at her and realized in that moment he wanted and cared for nothing else but her. He wished this night would last forever; that her hands would never be removed from the warmth of his side. That the sparkle in her eyes would never fade, her laugh would never subside.

“No?” His words escaped his lips without thought.

“No.” Her eyes skipped across the sky and paused on his face. Her heart raced inside her chest. All she wanted was for this moment to last.

. . .

He opened his eyes; The alarm clock screaming in his ears. His fists clenched tight. Bad dreams... good dreams then, only he wished it were reality. Sadly it had been a year, he wished she had melted into the sky, faded into the moon, the clouds or something… maybe even be that nameless star. But dreams were all he had left. She had died that night… He blamed himself.

Saw a man today with a bandaged face

All I could see were eyes.

A black hat to conceal his head

wonders buzzed like flies.

Saw a man today with a story to tell

oh I bet that it was hell

this man

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Snow sloshes to the ground

Hands frozen

Don't make a sound

Lips dare to touch?

I'll teach you much

If you trust me

Our little secret

Snow story.

"I support every choice you make."        

"Even death? If it makes me happy..."

 Blood stains the floor

in a pattern of droplets

 slowly flows

into a pool of blood next to a lonely shadow.

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Saying goodbye,

my eyes opened wide.

I see the sunset and my swaying subsides.

A bomb drops nearby, I've said my goodbyes.

 So as I turn to walk away, and the sea rolls on,

it's steady sway; my heart sinks under and breaks away.

Leaves fall and it's autumn my dreams will stay.

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This little girl inside

 All she can do is hide

 Black tears flow from hollowed eyes

 This little girl inside.

 She has a voice

 But dares not cry

Fears pain and trauma

She's dying inside.

This little girl

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Frozen in time my eyes flicker and time skips by. Your hand in mine, what, where, and why? How did this all happen?  Starting with a dark tall boy standing in line, waiting for love never given, as also was I. Now here frozen in time we touch. Electric lust and all I want is a hug to ease my hunger for love.

Some monster in a frozen place, with big black eyes and a sullen face. Razor teeth, and a jagged heart, skips a beat; falling stars. Monster stands thin and tall hidden away inside the walls. It can hear you scream in fear weak monster cries silent bloody tears.

You don't know me. The way I talk, the things I say. Words cover up feelings and if I smile you think I'm ok.  Where's my escape, a way out of the grey? Something to run to when I feel afraid. Arms reach out to hold me; please take me away. To you all I have to do is smile, you think I'm ok.

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Do you remember the night we didn’t go crazy, you arms wrapped around me? Watch as the stars fall from the sky this is your fate now, we’ll be alright, don’t make a sound. The light it all melted, leaving us breathless as people grew wrestles. This is our fate no space for mistakes even when we trip over our shoes. Do you remember the sun, when it blinded all others leaving us just for each other? As planes fell out of the sky, they were all burning alive but here, now, we are only just dreaming.

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 Rain falls at my feet and splashes up against the sidewalk. Silent streams of water race down the road in which I am walking. In my head chimes a lullaby of dreamy sadness. Maybe I love you, maybe I just love the rain. How can such a mind decide, when all I can feel are the tears clinging to face? How can anyone decide anything? My hands reach up to the whispy clouds and let the rain soak into my battered skin. Love me, or love me not, this is me. Sweet sadness of mine.

Hands cling to you, grow so cold I cringe but keep holding on. In your shadowy grave I shall never abandon you. Stones glisten in the moonlight, my sobbing cannot subside. Death was just a place you had to go to, but I can assure you I will never forget your face. Sitting alone in your chair, drunk with the lights off, don’t you remember? I came and took you from that bottle. Alcohol destroyed you. What about the silence, that screamed so loud you held me close? And when you looked into my eyes I could see a burning sunset. Read more »

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There’s a reason for everything; a reason for the sky to be grey and bleak, a reason why the waves lap against the shore, and leave particles of sand at your feet. Everything must have a purpose, a reason for the way something is . . . an explanation. The clouds hang low hugging the air I exhale and filter what I breathe in. My feet don’t touch the ground, cold and wet beneath my toes. Above gravity is how I explain it; with two words as a hanging reason, with no beginning or ending. Read more »