Falling Down

i like the rain
the clouds
the dark

cause sometimes
the sun is too bright
too hot

sometimes it's just too much

i like the feeling
of tears
running down my face

cause sometimes
it's too much work 
to hold myself together

sometimes it's just too much

i like to smile
and i like the sun
but sometimes
when the day is done

i want to write a sad poem
i want to the clouds to hide the sun
i want to the rain to hide my tears
and just let them fall

i want to let it all
fall down

all in one poem
where nothing makes sense

there's no rhyme or reason
no beat 
no melody

lines end

and they start
in weird places

this is my way
of falling apart

no capital letters
capital letters are for times
when i wanna be organized

fake

real poems
have real feelings

sometimes i have to drop it all
to let it fall
down

down

down

let it all fall
down the drain

words strung together
in a way that pleases me
they don't have to
make sense

to anyone but me

i just have to let it out
this is the way i will do it

no hate
no love
just let me be

let me fall
down

no need to catch me

just let me fall
down

down

down

into a pile of words
without punctuation 
or capitalization 

these are my words
my cushion
to fall on

my thoughts 
my dreams

these words
are me

my poetry spirals
downward
starting somewhere
and ending up
somewhere completely different

changing styles
halfway through
that's not unusual

cause i'm just falling 
down

down

down

and i'm making a cushion
as i go

as i fall
fall
fall

this is long
it came to me
out of the blue

well
not the blue
the sky is gray
and the rain is falling
down

down

down

just like me
we fall together

me and the water
falling down