Infinite

It's back.

---cumpulsivity rising in dark black
tides of confusion
jaded, marbled, smooth, polished tablets
of jealousy---

The systematic accumulation of every
iota of self doubt
forged against the miniscule
particles
of self preservation, confidence, control,
independence

---blood, brick, sun, anger red
rain clinging to every surface
midnight, mysterious, seductive, loathsome
blue walls of liquidity---

A furious wanting need to be different,
better, changed, reborn NOW,
not later, a indiscribable fire of
RAGE against everyone who is better, perfect,
happier, beautiful, praised, acknowledged

---symphonic abuse of low notes drowning
eardrums in clashing, discordant, unsanctioned,
twisted discord---

As it contorts onward expanding into every crevice
of movement and life,
consuming consuming consuming

---unending---.