Why Won't It Just Go Away?
The first time it happened,
I have to admit, I was scared.
I mean, I was only 13.
I didn't know what was going on.
I cried but you told me
Everything was going to be okay.
You said it was all normal,
That it's just supposed to come naturally.
After I said that you were hurting me,
you said it was supposed to hurt
The first couple times,
that the pain would go away
After you did it a few more times.
But it didn't.
It never did.
After all these years,
The pain never went away,
Neither did the scars on my back
From the impact that your fingernails had,
Scraping time after time,
Over and over again on my flesh.
And the pain in my mind will never go away.
No matter how hard I try to forget the events that happened,
They will always find me,
Haunting my dreams.
Every time I think it's finally gone,
Out of my mind for good,
It always comes back.
Always.
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