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"we were fated to pretend"

McWriter's picture

I.

i like to pretend 

that i feel 

nothing. 

i like

appearing hard & icy

because 

 

II.

no one wants frostbite.

 

III.

my heartstrings were untied & i

didn't notice everything 

flooding out. i don't know that 

i would have minded, if i had. 

 

i hate the memories because they 

remind me that i was the one

who threw them away

& i hate that i can't blame 

anyone but myself.

 

really, in situations like 

this, fault cannot

truly exist. as humans, mortal

beings without any real control, we 

like to assign blame

so that we can direct our pain 

at someone. 

 

IV.

we like to feel that we can

justify our weaknesses. 

 

V.

moving on

is a difficult art to grasp

& i almost 

almost almost almost

had it down. [babe, your

timing

is impeccable.]

 

VI.

i have never been this caught

in the middle. i can't 

can't can't can't

go back. iwon'tgoback.

you make going forward 

a task akin to 

uprooting a pine tree with bare hands. 

 

impossible.

 

it's too heavy &

prickly & i'm just

a person.

 

VII.

i'm just

trapped in limbo. 

 

VIII.

you got too far under my skin

& i don't know

which path to take at this

fork-in-the-road 

because there's no one left 

to ask for directions. 

 

IX.

i pretend to know 

exactly what i'm doing

[hell, i'm a teenager. i

must think i know everything anyway

right?]

 

X.

i can't trust myself not to

fall in love with the stars again. i

can't say that i won't lose grip

and let reverse gravity pull me

back into glittering space.

 

so i pretend that i've refilled

the contents of my heart enough

that i won't get pulled in again.

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Circe's picture

If your writing was a

If your writing was a painting, Mc, it would be an abstract, minimalistic, but I would never be able to look away.

This piece is approachable and relatable, but has such achingly beautiful imagery.

I love:

"my heartstrings were untied & i

didn't notice everything 

flooding out. "

Also, the pine-tree metaphor is awesome.

 

(Hang in there. Been there, done that, and I know it's hard. Best of luck.)

 

Cheers,

Ͼirce

McWriter's picture

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Wow, thank you. I don't know what to say. I'm so flattered you think so highly of it.

(Thanks. I'm getting through it.)

 

Ta.

Title Win!

 I was listening to Time To Pretend when I saw the title! Immediatly I was drawn in. The piece is beautifully written. Your ideas are well spoken.

-A Captain,

one of many.

River's picture

Wow

 This is amazing. So emotional, yet you phrase everything so perfectly, like you know exactly what you want to say. I wish I could write like this. Keep it up!

-LN

I'm not trying to ruin anybody's life. Sometimes I'm just really, really bad at doing people favors.

McWriter's picture

thanksya

Thank you all. It's a major ego boost to get such positive feedback. I can't tell you how nice it is to hear people think highly of my writing. Means a lot.

@CC - Haha, nice one. Good timing. I love MGMT. That song was stuck in my head atthe time I wrote this, and that line seemed to fit pretty well, so I went with it.

@LN - Wow, thanks. Just... thank you. :)

Thank you all again, I appreciate it.

Ta.

Brendan's picture

Mc strikes back

Perfect. You've outdone yourself again. Love it.