Ever Get That Feeling?..
Ever get that feeling where you're just going to DIE any second and there's nothing you can do to stop the overwhelming feeling and then you realize that you want it and that you just want the feeling to end and go away and it doesn't occur that snapping back to the reality forced into us as kids is another simple solution? Then again who wants to go back to that world- because even though you are going to die any second you're still freakishly aware of everything and everyone. Every little fiber of your being and it's panic and reaction. That "I'm going to die right now" is such a terrifying thing because there's nothing you can do to stop it from bombarding and overwhelming you and everything just closes but that feeling of extreme panic and certainty. Then you aren't afraid. You aren't afraid and then it ends. Just like that.