Casey Hayes

There was this boy.
Everything I knew before we met...
Everything I learned after...
All lies.
The glimmer of his eyes and the words he said
Meant nothing to him, but had the oposite effect on me.
Nothing feels better than always having someone captivating around.
[[I don't believe that captivating has ever been used as an adjective but then again there's a first time for everything.]]
My name was Naivety
And he was taking advantage.
Still, I was having the time of my life.
Then Deciet came along and stole his heart out of my hands...
And he disappeared.
He is different now; changed.
And the "I'm sorry"s were the emptiest words I (n)ever heard.
broken.badnews.
goodbye. you left and took my feelings with you.

Again. . . None

By Casey Hayes
Rutland High School, Grade 12

I wish you could see
The look on your face at this precise moment.
The way those blue eyes sparkle.
And your lashes seem to be taking a nap.
You're only half-smiling
'Cause you're not entirely sure
How to handle me.
[Or this situation.]
I'm sorry I'm a disaster.
[I never meant to drag you down with me.]

You told me love was a waiting game.
[I'm always waiting.]
That was some time ago now...
Before the tear stained faces;
Broken smiles.
And just after everything
STOPPED
Making sense.
You remind me of the tilt-o-whirl at amusement parks;
The way you spin too fast...
And make me sick from time to time.
I wish you could hear me speak these words.
Cuz I've decieved you into
Be[lie]ving
You had no affect on me.

I am drawn to you
Yet, somehow
Repulsed by you.
I am confused by you
And still
I see right through you.
We are a prime example of
Opposites attract
I fall down, you pick me up
I fall back down again.
I can't bear
The look in your eyes...
So, why can't I
Bring myself to
Look away?
The tangle in my head
Embraces my heart
I smile and move toward you
My head says to leave
To stop torturing myself
Why can't I walk away...?

I am
Staring out the window
And the
Shimmer
Of the sky
Reminds me of
Your pretty eyes.
Each time I
Lay my head down, I
See me beside you.
Nothing and everything
Intertwine
Yet, somehow it
Doesn't seem so
Catastrophic
Anymore; maybe because
You're so captivating

I've come to realize
That I'm
nothing to you.
I never was.
You lied.
And I fell in love with you.
This doesn't matter anymore...
But, I'll always care
My heart is yours.
I'm sorry.
I fell too fast;
Too hard.
And believe me,
I would take it back
But, the
Damage
Is already done
I'm a car wreck
And there's noone
To pick up the pieces

I miss when you'd
Hug me
And make it
All alright
I miss when
You were there
To kiss
My tears away
When I knew
I had to go
But it would
Kill me to
Leave your side
I miss
The comfort
Of your
Big, brown eyes
And how I could see the
Sadness in them
When you walked away
I miss your smile
And how it reached
For the stars
I miss your laugh
And how you
Pushed me

Gaze my way
Make me feel
There's some
Reason to
Keep trying
Because I will
Let go, give up
And I will
Never
Be heard from again
So, look at me
For once
Make me
Feel wanted
Show me
That my
Feelings
Aren't in vain
Just
Gaze my way, beautiful
And I'll gaze yours.

You broke my spirit
Like a flower to its perfume
I'm forever bound to the memories
I want nothing more than to forget
How your hands fit perfectly
With mine. How when I
Looked into your eyes
Everything seemed to disappear
And all I could see was you
You made me smile so easily
Your laughter was infectious
I love the way you used
To hop from foot to foot
When nervousness kicked in

Alone
A sole being in
A secluded place
Empty of sight
Vacant of sound
Nothing
Just
Silence
The most powerful
Noise
Quiet moments
Listening to your
Thoughts; really hearing them
Smiling in the
Dark
Where noone sees
Cryong only
When noone is there to hear
Emotions; why are they so hard to read?

You stole my heart
And for the first time in my life
I don't want it back
I didnt think it possible
But, you, love, have proved me wrong again
I love the way your lashes graze your cheeks
Long and lazy
Like your frame
Sprawled across the bed
You're exhausted
And I'm enjoying just watching you rest
Because I don't need anything more
Just this, right now
Just the company, the quiet

Because of him
She is broken-
Unable to move on.
Afraid
Of the hurt that is
Inevitable
Because of him
She won't enter
Her own room
It is filled with
Him
His smell
His laugh
Echoing words he said
Because of him
She can't sleep at night
He invades her dreams
Makes them nightmares
Yet, she loves them
Because he's there
His face is
Plastered
On her memory
The feel of his hands

You are my ocean
And I swim in
The shallows
Of your collar bone
Wallowing in the
Warmth of
Your arms
At home in your eyes
And lost in your words
This is where I want to be

You haven't left; not really
All of your things have
Vanished
But your scent (has)
Stayed behind
I can still feel you
Watching me as I write
Listening when I sing
All the things
We used to love to do
Still happen
But, we're down to one
Each seperate from the other.
Seperate from you
And somehow you still remain
I clean and clean
With the most
Fragrant
Substances i can find

The rasp of your voice
Never left my ears
It rings and rings
Plays over and over
Bright, but still
It raises the hair on
The nape of my neck
Lilies smile in the
Ripe starlight
And trains wail past
You are charming, graceful
While i am akward, speechless
Captivated by the sheer
Purity
Of the situation
The room is hollow, empty
And you are highly aware
Of my eyes
On your profile

Twilight
Captivating, entrancing
Illuminating me
The way a match does a candle
My heart jumps
At the sounds of night
Achingly beautiful songs
As we call communicate
Danger lurks
And still, we continue walking
Seeking the thrill, the security
Of being alone
Alone in the woods

Eyes the color of
Milk chocolate
And sweet as
Caramel
Dancing in the fire
Of your cheeks turned red-
Embarrassment.

Peel me a New Skin

By Casey Hayes
Rutland High School, Grade 12

Peel back the image
In your mind-
And see the real me.
For, I am not what I seem.
I am a liar,
And I've decieved you again.