wait

I sit
and I wait in silence
wondering what exactly
you are doing right now
what you are thinking of
who you're with

I wish I could call you
but alas,
I don't know your number

I would talk to you in the internet
but alas,
you are not signed on

I wish you would reply to the e-mails
I've sent
full of the questions I've asked you
why don't,
you reply?

I miss your face,
at karate
since baseball started

You are kind of like an idol for me at karate
I mean,
you are a black belt,
for crying out loud
who doesn't look up to someone who has
acheived such greatness,
such grace,
such power?

New York Mets,
he says,
is his favorite team
he's got the coolest hats to prove it

I'm still waiting
for you to show up online
so we can talk
or for you to just answer my e-mails
I only talk to you on the internet
because I am too scared to talk to you
face to face
because I'm afraid of acting stupid.
on the internet,
I don't have to worry about you seeing my face
get all red
with embarrassment

so when you get the chance
sign in online,
so we can chat,
I'm still waiting.

Some things just can't be said
About the things I've wanted to say to you.
Some things just can't be shown
About the way I feel about you.
Some things just can't be known
About the things I've wanted to do for you.
Some things just can't let go
Of the littles things we have in common
Sometimes, I cry myself to sleep
Wishing I would have
Done something different,
Said something different,
Somethings just want to cry out
"We are perfect for eachother,
Can't you see?"
Why can't I say the things
I've been longing to say to you
Why can't I do the things
I've been longing to do for you
Why can't I show the things
I've been longing to show you
I'm not very fair to myself
I always cut myself short
Guess all I'll have to do
Is wait for you to come around
And to give me a chance

I never felt anything in the world
like this before
Like total shock
Why does the pride you hold
Make you run away
As if you are afraid of me
As if I did something wrong
I can wait for you to come back to me
I can hold you close to my heart
How could you just walk away
And hope things will get better
I dont see why you would go
And leave me crying