sad

Bothers, sometimes they fight but when you go to bed you are all ways happy to have one. Well I was not so lucky. My bother died 12 minutes after he was born. He died because his left lung clasped. The doctor rushed to keep him breathing but all of a sudden, he just stopped. Those 12 minutes were the longest of my life. When we left the hospital, there was a accident. A very bad one, and me and my dad were in it. A pickup truck side swiped us ( on the drivers side). My dad was in critical condition, I on the other hand, I was fine. Just a scratch or two. Soon I won't have a dad to ride bikes with or play catch. I also won't have a brothay ever.er to teach the alphabet to or to hold in my arms when I watch tv. Today really was the worst day ever.

I feel so alone. 

It’s creeping in on me.

Creeping through the cracks in my head, heart and body.

It’s consumed me.

I’m alone with myself.

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Him.

His look is like shards of glass ripping through my skin,

Each one puncturing a different part of the body,

Severing. Every. Last. Drop of crimson red blood,

Cutting off my life line,

Day by day, night by night,

Waiting, waiting,

For that last day,

 It will come soon, I can feel it,

That day where everything will end,

And maybe, just maybe, I will be happy again.

Without trace or warning

Sad is a thing that happens

As often as the morning

For me

It becomes a daily

Routine of normalcy

That never fails

To come back home

To my heart's entrails

Just like the moon finds

Rest beneath the hills

Once more it climbs

When the sunlight dies

Then all of time stills

And the rest of the world abides

My soul grown weary

It will long for a keep

To rock it steady and soft

Until it forever can sleep

There it is again: a loud, crisp bark, splintering the night. Silence follows when the howl fades. The crickets long ago deserted our miniscule outcropping, and my neighbors are tucked away in their small cabins, exhaling puffs of thick condensed air as their heating systems sputter. I however, can’t stand not knowing the dog who cries into the night again and again, and long ago gave up on comfort. I continue to press through the tall grass, my thin pajama pants snagging the dried twigs and nettles. I pause, take a deep labored breath of the refreshing air, and wait for another pitiful howl to pierce the lonely, forgotten night. When it comes, I find I am closer to the sound, and I increase my pace.

Suddenly, my legs break out of the tangled weeds, and I am in a clearing of weed-riddled dirt, undisturbed by human feet. With the faithful moon above my head, I can see a solitary path left by a dog, leading into a crooked farmhouse with the door slightly ajar. The window is shattered by the consequences of neglect. Weeds are starting to climb its walls, and as my eyes wander up its abandoned frame, I hear the bark again. Then I see it, a tenuous beagle sitting in the top window of the house. Its ears are drooping, and it’s just sitting there, calmly speaking to the night with the last of its energy, sharing the sorrow of its pain, and finding solace. I call to the dog: “Hello, little fella!” His dark eyes stare bluntly at my rough, scratched face. His howl breaks into the night, but this time it also breaks into my heart. Read more »

It's the kind of sad

That starts out numb

Increasing steady like

The beat of a drum

It's the kind of sorrow

That spreads over me

Building slowly like

The quaking of a sea

It's the kind of gloom

That fogs up the brain

Choking out life like

The clot of a vein

It's the kind of woe

That drags straight down

Pulling edges like

The corners of a frown

It's the kind of hurt

That slices out reason

Bitterly striking like

The words of treason

On that dark and stormy night
The fluttering heart went cold
Death took its prize despite
My efforts brave and bold

Shadows kissed the ladys head
She would no longer weep
As she had known when in bed she lay
She would forever sleep,

Milky clouds, bright light surround
For good this maiden was
She has gone and cannot be found
She made her choice because

Pain and sorrow disappeared
For now her mind was free
Sounds in the night no longer feared
Yet, to welcome this,
she abandoned me

she's sad

but more than ever.

she's moody

but more than before.

she writes

but never about joy, or peace.

she sleeps

but it's a fitful one, full of nightmares and fears.

she cries

but only when her tear ducts can no longer hold the pent up flood.

she talks

but not when she needs to,

never when she needs it most.

she sees things

not her dreams of the future, but fears, death everywhere.

i watch

and worry about the consequences of helping

but what are the consequences of

                                                          watching,

                                                                         waiting, Read more »

A single droplet, sparkling in the evening sun, trails down your smooth face,

I can feel thoughts swirling around in your head,

about times past,

both melancholy, and joyful,

Our eyes meet and for one,

deep, sad moment, we gaze,

until you look quickly away,

I want to say,

"don't hide your tears"

but the words just don't come,

we drop into an eery silence,

until one final word echoes around me,

breaking the wall between us,

"Good bye."

I can,

hide a frown with a smile,

hide a tear with a laugh,

and look like my glass is full and not half.

I can fool my mom,

I can fool my dad,

but it doesn't hide the fact that I'm sad.

I can run here,

I can run there,

by I can't escape it anywhere.

It hurts like a rotted tooth,

it seems I have but one option:

to tell the truth.

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Tell me,

When was it over?

Was it when the world went white,

Or when the lazy petals fell?

Was the family sad,

Or glad to see you go?

Tell me.

What it this concept?

I've heard people talk about it,

but never have I experience it.

Everyone says it's the best feeling,

I want that!

I want that feeling!

But sadly I get the feeling of being alone.

Sigh

Just for a minute or a day,

is that asking too much?

I know I shouldn't be like other people,

but I want to be like them.

I want to show a real smile,

I want to laugh at a joke and actually mean it. Read more »

Hello, all. This is the result of the creative writing class I'm currently in. We were given a prompt- we were given ten words and had to use at least eight of them in a poem, which we had seven minutes to write. We were not allowed to cross anything out or go back and revise it. I thought I'd put it up here, seeing as I kind of like it.

The silence is a cacophany

An elephant in the room

A stop sign for the thoughts

Of everyone in the ballroom

If we took the silence outside Read more »

 *I Don't own rights to these lyrics, but This is my heartbreak song*

Somewhere Only We Know - Keane

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Today is the 14th of July, 2011, and tonight at midnight I will probably be crying like a very small child while staring at my copy of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows.

I've written about Harry Potter on this site before. I think the last time was when Deathly Hallows, Part I came out and I talked about how happy I was that it was good. Anyway, this is definitely not the first time.

It is, however, the most important. Read more »

That girl you saw

You know the one

The one staring out the window hungrily

The one with eyes that had seen and gone through so much

Only to be defeated again.

The girl you saw

The one you ignored

The one that was begging, hoping, wishing, praying for you to look up

And save her.

The girl you saw

While walking through a bad part of town

The one who was your age

Maybe younger.

That girl was doomed.

Doomed to cater to the wishes of men Read more »

I sit by the seashore,

with pen and paper in my hand.

I watch as the bright orange sun slowly melts into the night.

I inhale the salty sea breeze,

which feels heavenly in my weak lungs.

My paper remains blank.

Then I remember every insult,

remark,

and lie ever made about me.

I remember ever lost,

broken,

or false love I ever had.

Every time my heart was broken or lied to.

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“I love him. It's just not the same.”

“Is he good to you?”

“Yes, of course. He's just....not the same. He's not you.”

“Well why settle on him?”

“I'll always have a reason to keep looking. I'm done searching, I just want someone who makes me happy.” Read more »

Curious deception

How you bemuse

Without warning

Instantanious

Your works

Trust broken

Love destroyed

Leaving us all

Numb 

 The plankton swims about

its tiny, microscopic body wriggling along

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I didn't see it coming. I could tell it was serious. We sat, my sister, mother, father, and I in a circle. The Christmas tree added to the soft atmosphere, as well as the lights, which rather glowed than illuminated. It was intense. My parents wanted to talk. What could this mean? I honestly didn't know what was about to happen. What was about to change my life forever. Read more »

Wanru was a 26 year old mother. She and her husband, Dan, had known each other ever since the 6th grade. They were both popular. She works at a local office building as a secratary. Read more »

Don't try to intimidate me.

All you Kings, Queens, Haters, The Man, and The Puppet.

You all thought that you could hurt me, by going to where I live/hurting me where it hurts.

I'm not afraid of you.

I don't care how much power you have, Man and Puppet.

I don't care how popular you are Kings and Queens.

I'm not afraid,

to take a stand.

Listen up, I'm not going to take this from you.

Prepare for a fight.

Cause I'm determined.

And to my fans, I'll never let you down again.

Cause I'm back. Read more »

Everybody knows everybody
But I don't know anyone
Everyone's in a big group
But I'm standing all alone
Everybody's chatting happily
I'm as silent as the grave
Why?
Who I am to disrupt
Their joyous talk
They haven't seen each other
At all over the summer
While I haven't seen them
Ever
I feel lost and lonely
I'm all by myself
Just the girl in the hallways
Writing all this down
Pay no attention to me
I know that you won't
Because I'm invisible
Don't worry
I'm getting used to it.