role models

We're having fun
Trying accents
Laughing at
Each other

Laying on my
Sleeping bag
Scared in by
The thunder
And lightening

We're trying
To write
Fiction novels
And we can't
Think of anything
So late at night

I say
Something funny
We laugh
Hysterically
It's something
You would've heard
If it wasn't
Summer now

We think
About how
We couldn't
Put the tent up
Because it was
Inside out

How we
Took it down
Faster than
Anything we've
Ever done before

We didn't want
To get struck
By lightening

I keep thinking
That I'll be able
To tell you guys
About how funny
It was

How stupid
We felt

And then
I realize
It's summer

You guys
Probably
Won't read your
Emails

Or reply back

This leaves me
With an empty feeling

Like my friends
Just died
And I have
No one left
To tell our
Funny stories to

We reach out
To friends
To family
To God
To role models

We reach out
Looking for
Security
Hoping for
Safety

We reach out
To people
Who we can't
Talk to in
Person

We reach out
To people who
Won't email us
Back

We reach out
To people we
Get frustrated with
Who get frustrated
With us

We reach out
Hoping they'll
Do the same
Wishing they'll
Put their trust
In us
Like we put ours
In them

We reach out
Even though we
Just know
They'll never
Talk to us
About it

We reach out
So that we
Can be there
In the rare event
They'll open up
And talk to us

We reach out
Even though
They seem to
Reject us
All the time

We reach out

Why?