dying

First encounters are the worst, you know why? They're the first so you just don't know. Well that didn't happen when i met you, you were the first person to meet my eye. I knew right there that you were the one. When i would walk into a room you were the first one i'd look for. Now your gone, gone from the world, gone from me. I didn't know that it was going to happen and niether did you but you're gone and there is nothing i can do about it. It was our first encounter when you looked at me and told me you loved me. I believed you, stupid me cause now i love you but you're gone. I feel so alone how could you do this to me. When you're gone the words i need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok. Those words won't come and niether will you cause you're gone and i'm here. I feel so guilty even though it wasn't my fault, i would give you my life.

This day is going by slowly
We've only finished two blocks
It feels like forever

And then after school
I'm not going to be there
I won't be signed on to talk

Why do I need you so badly?

Sweatshirt scents fade
Tears wash them away
Over-sniffing causes neutralization

Etched memories are worn away
I can't remember your eyes
I'm dying

Why do I need you so badly?

Little things I hear in the halls
Other people's voices
Echo like yours

Where we first met, an empty memory
Because you're not there
We're not waiting

Why do I need you so badly?