Sep 14
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Atlantic

I could see without my eyes
The first time that you kissed me
Soundless with your lips on mine
Let your hand in mine deliver me
Feel my bare feet on the ground
Blessed be the mystery
Of love.

Because while I am a sinking ship at sea
You are a roaring riptide
My last chance at a life lived completely
Without my regrets stinging my bleary eyes
Looking back on fuzzy memories.
How I used to live-- to survive.

After I was built up for years
You were so quick to knock me down
An all-too-painful reality check
I become so detached when you're not around
Because you are a giant and I'm but a speck.
Throw me in the ocean to see if I drown
See if I swim or if I sink
Because I get stronger
Every time that you leave me
I'm more powerful
Every time that you blink.

I wish for once I could close my eyes
And I wouldn't be forced to continue to see
Sep 14
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Vermont in Words

    I hold my breath instinctively as I walk down Main Street. The iced coffee from Carol’s Hungry Mind Cafe that I hold in my right hand sloshes as I break into a light jog. I don’t let myself breathe in until I open the door and smell the words, freshly printed onto clean, white paper, filling my senses. I barely have time to smile at Liam, standing behind the counter, before I walk as fast as I can to the back of the store, where they keep the best books. “Hello to you too, Maisie,” he calls after me and I laugh, in spite of the distinct urgency of this particular errand. I plop myself down on the brown, suede couch that smells like newspapers and rainy Sunday mornings. I contemplate the gigantic bookshelf sitting in front of me and wonder where it will take me next.
Aug 22
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Eclipsed

I spent most of today
Floating up in space
My head in the clouds
My heart in the air
I kissed a solar eclipse
Right on the lips
A secret that only us
And the stars could share
I spent most of tonight
Fighting back my tears
Because after a long day without caring
I'm left with my fears
And I just don't know
How I can live
With the weight of the world
Resting on my shoulders

Because I'm a sunrise dressed as dust
I'm a moth drawn hopelessly to a flame
I'm an iron soul, covered in rust
And I've only got myself to blame
Because you and I used to be us
Back when I used to laugh and dance in the rain
Now I'm afraid to go outside
Because even slight movements bring me pain.

I would fancy myself a great explorer
But now I'm only filled with regret
What didn't I see? What could I have done?
So I take myself back to the night we met

Aug 03
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Dearly Departed

Took the wilted flowers
From the ground where you lay
Placed a single rose at your feet
You always said 'it'll get better one day,'
But right now, tears stream down my cheeks.

The sun shines bright
But my skies are still grey
Because I know I won't see you again
At least not for a while and not in the same way
And I really can't stand the silence.

So take me back to the start
You were an angel in the shape of my heart
Sp angel, don't you dare look down
Spread your wings and let yourself fly
It's time for you to leave me
It's time to say 'goodbye.'

Packed your things up in boxes
Blew the dust away
From the 'get well' cards surrounding your bed
Glanced at the scrapbooks that you so loved to make
Let them fall into the hole in my chest.

Mopped the floor, wiped the windows
I scrubbed and I scrubbed
But I couldn't scrub you away
Jun 16
poem 4 comments challenge: Ghost
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Katherine

She wasn’t like other girls you know
When you pointed a camera at her
She wouldn’t smile or strike a pose
She’d go about her daily business
So effortlessly beautiful
She’d think nothing of it
She didn’t want to display herself.
 
She didn’t talk just to hear
The sound of her own voice
And when she spoke, her words range clear
Articulate, kind and intelligent
For she was wise beyond her years
And while her mind screamed, she stayed quiet
Never showing any fear
Never wavering, never shrinking
Never fighting, never fleeing
She stared her enemies down
Until they found they had trouble breathing
Intimidated by the quiet girl
With the loudest kind of mind.
Afraid of the incomplete person
With the fire in her eyes.

Some people are beautiful
Not in what they say
And not the way they look
Just in the way they are
She was one of those people
Jun 14
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A Life of Piracy

You might find yourself alone one day
Floating rather than sailing
Drifting rather than exploring
In an empty, blue abyss
Around you all you can see is the void
That smells like salt,rotting wood and fish
Your ship, your salvation, is falling to pieces
Your smile is falling from your face
Your life is losing relevance
As you feel yourself wasting away.

So you cast your gaze to the horizon
It never changes
It never falters
For all you know, you're not even moving
You're standing perfectly still
Or perpetually stuck in a circle
Maybe this is where the sailors go
When they get lost in the Bermuda triangle
But what makes you different,
Is that every day, you wake up excited
Becuase today could be the day..
That's what makes you special
That's what keeps you going
Hope.

It first appears as no more than a haze on the horizon
May 30
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Young

I should be asleep
But I’m lying awake
Chilled to deep
By some type of earthquake
Staring at the ceiling
I watch and I wait
You’ve had me feeling
This way for days.
 
You’re fierce and formidable
Yet you never judged me
Never dismissed me as the girl next door
You saw in me what I couldn’t see
You saw a person, a friend, something more
With your head out my sunroof
You shouted and screamed
The words to that David Bowie song
It was like a scene from a story, a book or a movie
A perfect moment when I felt right and not wrong
 
Because you’re not what anyone expected
You’re not who they asked you to be
You’re unapologetically yourself
You’re all you’ll ever need.
I meet all the expectations
I check every box
But still I feel like something is missing
I don’t want to be this person I’m not
But I don’t want to let down my family
May 21
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Getting Better

I am the one who only knows who I'm not
Defined by everything that I can't do
Not thanking what I've already got
I know that I'm ungreatful, it's true
But it's hard for me to understand
How am I supposed to get better
When I don't even know who I am?

I hear your name
In the voice coming back room
I take a walk through the dark,
I follow just to find you
I trace the sound to the static
On that old car radio
The white noise screaming
If you don't love you'll never know.

I didn't know that I was alone
Until I saw your face
I didn't know my heart was empty
Until you filled the space
I didn't know that I was crazy
Until you called me sane
And I didn't know that I was ordinary
Until you called me strange
You can't tell me who I am
Even if you know everything
Because maybe I am broken
But I still want to change
Apr 13
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Modern Artistry

What do you say to yourself in the mirror
On the days when you no longer feel like trying?
What do you say to your best friend's tears
When you wake up to the sound of them crying?
What do you say to your mom and dad
When they ask if you're feeling okay?
Do you tell them the truth?
Or do you lie to stay out of their way?

You're the kind of person who drives too fast
Cursing red lights for slowing you down
And I scream into the emptiness
But your blaring car radio drowns me out.
My whole world lurches forward
You send me into overdrive
As you force the clutch down to the floor
Moving at the speed of light
And more than anything I've ever felt before
You make me feel alive

You're looking for undiscovered worlds
Underneath layers of peeling gray paint
An alternative reality
Of swirling colors and shapes
Some people call it grafitti
Mar 29
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The Age of Exploration

I’ve been camping out on rooftops
Of every lighthouse that I see
Because the ocean is the only place
That makes any sense to me
And recently, my life's been simply senseless
So I wanted to tell you that I'm sorry
I know that your heart has been a mess
I know that you’ve been hurting
Ever since I left
It’s been nothing but constant yearning.
A craving for the lost moments
That have now become memories
A thought about a piece of stardust
That is now a part of me.
 
You must have found a way somehow
To close your eyes and hear my voice
In the middle of a concrete jungle
With sirens, screams and bright white noise.
I'm on a journey guided by the stars
And you? You are nowhere to be found
The sorry that I wanted to say to you
Is lost in the abyss of sound
It’s traveling on the ocean waves
Who knows how far it will go?

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