Oct 04
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Ghost Girl

Ever been so close you could taste it.
Feel it,
See it.
Ever been so close you could hold it,
Mold it,
show it.
But then someone tells you "NO"
Two simple words.
Two words that could tear you to shreds.
Wreck all the progress in your head.
Make you feel dead.
a ghost girl in a ghost town.
Dreams and ambitions flying by.
Dreaming and ambitions dying by.
Ghost girl on the ground to cry.
Ghost girl on the ground to die.
Ghost girl where she will forever lie.
Ghost girl wants to be alive.
Ghost girl wasnt to scream "WHY?"
Ghost girl doesn't understand.
Ghost girl wants her life back.
Ghost girl doesn''t want to disappear.
ghost girl wants what she's always wanted.
Ghost girl wants the stage.
Ghost girl wants the spotlight.
Ghost girl wants the moves that feel right.
Ghost girl...
Ghost girl wants...
Ghost girl wants to be happy.
Oct 04
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The Storm


Have you ever felt the rumble of a thunderstorm.
Bumb bumb bumb.
Or your heartbeat,
Bumb babumb babumb.
It get's louder the more anger you build inside.
The more of your emotions you try to hide.
Hoping it'll go away,
but it never does,
It's here to stay,
Felt glass shatter beneath ur hands.
A child Smashing all their crayons.
Finally a light opens up.
The eye of the storm.
Only many forget the eye is only the middle.
The crash,
crash, 
CRASH,
Starts.
The bumb  bumb bumb,
bumb babumb babumb.
 
Sep 08
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Silence

I am human,
Scared legs,
A cut on my hand from an accident with a knife,
I have a right to be loud.
I am a homosapien,
A bipedal creature of chemicals, 
Cells,
And everything in between.
Brunette, with brown eyes.
Olive colored skin.
All my faults written,
across a body that craves to be read.
Wants someone to tell me my faults are okay,
I just want to be okay.
Holding these hands up to the Gods,
Pray that life becomes good.
Because I refuse to face another one of these days.
I am a picture of my mother,
Her faults,
her history,
written across my DNA,
I want to scream
"I AM HUMAN!"
but what will that do.
Being dehumanized is a part of growing up.
Losing who you are is a part of adelescence.
But it is not,
and never should be.
I am all my faults,
and my faults are bound to choke me.
Ripping the confidence off my body,
May 21
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I am who I am.

I am the one who hears the beat.
​Who'd rather admit defeat than cheat,
Have all them other players take a seat.
I heard I'm so sweet.
​Bon Appetite.
​I am the who who dominates,
Living among the great,
You can't shake, me,
Worse than You have tried to break, me,
I hear you pleas,
​I just sip ma tea.
​I've never felt so free,
​Fills me with a sense of glee.
Still trying to bring me down I see.
​On top of the world.
Me and My girls.
And nothing's gonna bring us down.
​Holding onto our crowns.
100 feet above the ground.
​I am the one who hears the sound.
Not spending anytime on these hounds,
Ain't letting them getting me wound.
Running them round.
​I am the one who cant resist
​A game with a twist.
​All these others players want an assist.
They just get themselves dismissed.
Thinking there's no way to coexist.
I ain't no recidivist.
May 20
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Second Chances.

Second chances,
So sick of these second chances baby.
Throwing things at me,
Why can't you just leave me be?
Second chances babe,
Second chances baby.
Let me be
Can't you see?
I don't want to side guy.
​I don't need to hide guy.
I want a fly guy.
Give me a ride or die guy.
Ya.
You just want a  fuck girl.
​One around your finger.
Someone there who lingers,
The provided bringer.
Wait,
Hold up.
​You think I'll wait for you.
Baby you ain't got a clue.
​Which one of us has grew,
I think it's time for you to shoo.
Second chances,
​So sick of these second chances baby.
​Say you "love" me,
​Why can't you just leave me be?
Second chances babe,
​Second chances baby.
I wanted to hug you,
Tell you I love you,
But seeing that I knew,
​You were searching for another,
Why don't you go hug her?
All our memories one big blur,
May 19
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Everything Will Be Okay

One shot, Two shots, three shots, four,
​You just started throwing up on the bathroom floor.
​Body numb from fights.
You've given up on life.
​Waiting for your girls outside.
​Wondering if you should just hitch a ride.
​Everything inside has died.
​Left alone to cry.
​Looking up at god and screaming why., why, why ,why
Screaming Why, why, why.
​Everything will be okay pretty lady,
Dry you tears.
​Not everyone's as shady.
​As your two faced friends lately
​Everything will be okay pretty lady,
Dry your tears,
I know your friends have been flaky,
​But you've got nothing to fear,
​Baby dry your tears.
​Try to give up on drinking.
Left alone just thinking.
That's when they come around.
​Fox and the hound.
​But they ain't, ever really there for ya.
​They just, pretend like they wantcha.
Everything will be okay pretty lady,
Dry your tears,
May 17
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I Didn't Realize How Naive I Was

Boys like you,
​Who leave girls black and blue.
​Clothes all strewn.
​Green eyes,
And cheap perfume.
Boy like you.
​Listening to those silly little tunes.
Fate completely doomed.
​Thinking back to the time
When I smiled fully,
Grew slowly,
​And didn't realize  how naive I was.
Girl like you.
With a smile a mile wide.
​Scared little girl to run and hide.
Pictures only from her good side.
​Joking chides.
​Girls Like you,
Splashing in the incoming tide.
​Left on a bathroom floor and cried.
Thinking back to a time,
​When I would whine.
​When I covered the black and blues.
​A time after I smiled fully,
Grew slowly,
and didn't realize how naive I was.
Boy like you,
​(Girls like you)
Who leave girls black and blue
(With a smile a mile wide)
Clothes all strewn
​(Scared little girl to run and hide)
Green eyes
May 17
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And They Say Bullies Only Exist At School

I do not have words to say,
​My mind growing farther by the day.
​Listening silently from far away
​Nowhere, is safe.
​I tell myself it will get better.
​That this is just a storm.
​Check the weather,
I bet the storm is showing up there.
It's not.
My heart thrumming.
​I try to hide the tears.
They come anyway.
Absence for years,
For this...
​You see the liquid bursts cascade hideously down my face.
MY heart quickens it's pace,
​Hoping you'll stop when you see them.
Feel them.
​KNOW them.
​Know that you were the cause of them.
​But your face breaks out in a menacing grin.
I want to beat my head in with a tin.
​Remembering it was you who told me" Tears won't work on people"
​Your laughter echoes around me in taunting.
Wanting to see me suffer.
​I feel as though it's my fault.
​For your malice.
​Unchiding of suicide.
May 17
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I am not perfect

I, am not perfect.
​I am not the twirling, tendril, perfect beauty everyone perceives.
I am not.
Perfect.
​rose bud cheeks.
Soft melodically voice.
Gentle hearted.
Peaceful.
Perfect and poise.
I'm snide remarks,
Empty bottle of gut wrenching pain.
​Trips to the bathroom,
​Vomit sliding up my throat,
​Coat the silent tears that fall.
​I am red.
​Ever consuming.
​I'm the Hit you didn't expect because I'm a "Girl."
​I'm far fetched tales of half blooded pulps from people who dared cross my path on a bad night.

I am not silent.
​I am not a "Good Girl"
I am not a teachers pet.
​I am not dressed modestly,
I am not designer.
I am not for wondering eyes.
​I am not an art piece for you to ogle at.
​I am louder than a stereo.
​I am labeled "Trouble Maker"
​I do what needs to be done to keep my head above the water.
Nov 06
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Distance

1,851 mile,
​Yet I still love you.
256 days
Yet I'd wait a lifetime.
A promise I intend to keep,
​So long as you keep yours.
​If I can only see your face through a screen,
That's fine by me,
​As long as I know you're mine.

​Darling don't be sad,
​WIth you, I am glad.
Though I may not be able to kiss you when youu need.
​Or hold your hand when you cry.
I may not be able to hold you close
​And though those thoughts might make me want to die.
I'll survive,
​So long as I am yours and you are mine.

Distance may seem like a lot.
You may question my love.
​But for you, love is all that I've got.
​Amd without you,
​I don't know what I'd do.

One day I'll hold your hand.
​One day I'll hold you close.
I'll be there when you can't cry or stand,
​ANd I'll tell you why I chose.
That I was yours and you were mine.


 

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