Feb 09
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You Being With Me

I see you.
Do you?
Can you see why I chose you?
You can't.
I chose you because you were silly.
I felt you fullfil me.
When I'm with you.
I don't care about what you do.
I can't figure out why you love me too.
But I don't care as long as I have you.
I smile when I think.
Not wanting to drown my  sorrows in a drink.
I light up inside.
You are there through the tears I cried.
I tried.
But you were there.
With your blonde hair.
Blue eyes.
That also cried.
You haven't left me
That's why I can't see.
You being with anyone but me...



 
Feb 08
poem 0 comments challenge: Opening
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I Was Reminded

I was reminded.
I was reminded that my life means nothing.
I was reminded that my life means nothing because we might be in a black hole, inside another black hole.
I was reminded that my life means nothing because we might be in a black hole, inside another black hole, but...



I was reminded.
I was reminded by him that  I mean everything.
I was reminded by him that I mean everything and that's good enough for me...




I was reminded.
I was reminded that I shouldn't care what they think.
I was reminded that I shouldn't care what they think because if my life means nothing neither does their's.
I was reminded I shouldn't care what they think because if my life doesn't mean nothing neither does their's and life is way too short to worry, anyways.
 
Feb 08
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I was reminded

I was reminded.
I was reminded that my life means nothing.
I was reminded that my life means nothing because we might be in a black hole, inside another black hole.
I was reminded that my life means nothing because we might be in a black hole, inside another black hole, but...



I was reminded.
I was reminded by him that  I mean everything.
I was reminded by him that I mean everything and that's good enough for me...




I was reminded.
I was reminded that I shouldn't care what they think.
I was reminded that I shouldn't care what they think because if my life means nothing neither does their's.
I was reminded I shouldn't care what they think because if my life doesn't mean nothing neither does their's and life is way too short to worry, anyways.
 
Feb 07
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I Remember You

"Do you love me?
If it wasn't for your sister I would have hung myself by now..."
Really?
Why is it my fault?
Of course I love you.
I know you love me too.
But when is it okay to ever say that.
I just wanna have someone kill with me with a bat.
Go hide in my grampa's favorite hat.
The one he gave me.
Last summe see?
I remember your Suns,
And your Carebear drawings on my lunches.
I remember how you wanted to go on my field trips but never could.
I remember going to the park,
My baby dolls you'd buy me.
I remember you let me drive down the dirt road.
I remember you lifting me out of the water at the ice hole.
I remember you putting peroxide on my cuts.
I remember you laughing at my outfits.
I remember you snuggling with me before I started school.
I remember decorating trees.
I remember Oreo and Thumper that christmas.
Feb 07
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Playing Games


You think this is a game you can play.
Everytime you say.
Expectin me to holler hey.
Haha.
I aint one to play.
It's real or I don't want it.
Your stupid playin shit.
I aint a playin a little boy's games.
All you little boys be the same.
You think I'd be cryin without you.
You the one cryin at everythin I do.
Moving on t your next.
Tryin to get girls to sext.
I aint about that life.
I reapin my strifes.
Haha.
So play your games.
WIth the girls who are all the same.
Aint getting me back.
Little boy you mad?
Feb 06
poem 1 comment challenge: Love
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Lovely Life


They tell me not to love you,
But how could I not?
Your blonde hair,
Blue eyes.
Your tall stature,
And your voice.
I never thought you could love me too.
But you did.
I thought of you.
In the back of my mind.
For two straight years.
Almost three.
Always scared to approach you.
I didn't know what you would do.
You were part of that group.
I was hated by most girls in that group.
I was terrified of the boys in that group.
But I got over that.
I was more terrified of you.
I was terrified of my feelings.
I was terrified of being rejected by you.
But I was head or heels for you too.
You were tall,
Strong,
Different.
There was something behind your eyes.
I was terrified of what that might be.
I never thought you woud ever like me.
We barely ever talked.
But I loved your voice.
When you would walk by talking.
Jan 28
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April Showers

Jan 28
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May


"April showers bring May flowers"
May flowers are beautiful.
The vibrant colors.
From pink, to red, to yellow, to white, blue, green,
And everything in between.
But May is months away.
Everything I see is dead.
No sunny warm days.
The cold fills me with dread.
At the thought of everything dead.
But I wouldn't have it any other way.
Who cares for the flowers,
Or the sunshine.
I love the cold,
And warm mugs of hot cocoa.
Feel the heat of someone laying close to you.
I could survive if the trees never woke up.
As long as they were still alive.
Winter is still here.
I know spring will come.
So I am content with the snow.
And the flowers will soon grow.
So I am okay with the cold.
Even when I am old.
I love my winter wonderland.
Where eveything it cold.
When life is not bold.
But I will continue to me.
The summer is too hot for me.
Jan 27
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Inadequate

Silently, I waited.
My hand cramping from holding it up,
But you just stare at me.
You refuse to ackknowledge my raised hand,
You barely try to ackknowledge my existence.
I move to raise my other hand.
My movement catches your eye.
You look right in my eyes
And turn your head.
I've held up my hand for three minutes now.
Everyone else in the room has been called on.
Some three or four times,
But I'm still raising my hand.
You ask if anyone has anything else to say.
I know you'll chastise me for calling out.
So I continue to raise my hand.
You begin to move on.
I wave my hand and look around.
Other students notice that you ignored my raised hand.
I hold it up for just a little longer.
Slowly my hand lowers.
I knew the answer that no one else knew.
I had something no one had thought about.
But you refused to even ackknowledge me...
Jan 25
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ME


I want what I don't have,
I have what I don't want.
I find easy things hard,
And hard things easy.
I can't do easy work.
I don't have hard work to do.
My mind shuts down when you force me to be open.
But when I'm open on my own, I'm too open.
It's easy for me to open back up
But hard for me to close up.
Hard for me to shut up
But easy for me to be loud.
Loud things are quiet,
And quiet things are loud.
I'm the opposite of the crowd,
That's the hardest thing to be.
When you cannot physically be "normal"
You understand everyone and no one
No one understands you.
It's confusing.
Sometimes you feel your hallucinating.
Everything turned on it's side.
Different from what it's suppose to be.
You physically can't change it.
You are where everyone is different from you.
They refuse to see things the way you do.
You just do you.

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