Some days I feel like I'm falling apartat the edges.Like every breathI pull in is on the verge of tears. Some days I feel like the oceancould drop righton top of my headand it would still feel better than this.At least I would know why I was drowning. It happens more often nowwhere my overwhelming happinessis stolen; washed awayso suddenly I don't even catch a glimpse of the attacker. It's like some part of me has been squeezed out. Sometimes you save me. Other times I just let my self sink.
1.Today I listened to the wind. The kind of listening that takes overall senses.It washed me away. 2.Overwhelming. The way it starts to breathe for you.As. If. You. Might. Drown. 3. You look like you might have been swimming. But you never admit to loving the river enough to skip school.I ask to join you next time. 4. You don't respond.5. I know you laugh like the sun. It's hard not to notice. "Wishing for unforgiving things is sometimes dangerous." I told youhow much it means to me, living with the tides.6.I know it's like you said the first night I swam in the dark"Darkness is only a by-productof something too sunken to name."I wish I could tell youI knew what that meant. 7. I wish I could tellyou I know the differencebetween darkness and water.