Oct 24

captured

I cry
I curl up
and time stops
until I'm trapped... 
totally
captured 
I want to stop
I want to smile
and hide
but I can't
I want to keep it in
and leave me to be
but I know 
the truth will hurt me
my feelings are too loud
Mar 19

my favorite color

Describe your favorite color without saying It's name...

It washes upon you and rushes through you,
It’s everything and nothing and feels like something brand new,
But it’s always been there and it’s vibrant and free,
It’s good and bad it’s a room without a key,
Because it doesn’t need acceptance to get to where it is,
It’s proud, it’s glad and it doesn’t mind it’s biz,
It’s loving them with everything you have until it tears you apart,
It’s taking your pain and running through the store with a cart,
It’s bittersweet, it’s rich, it’s vibrant, and dark,
It overwhelms you until you can’t help but narc,
Then it’s gone like it was always so far,
And can’t describe it you won’t be able to guess it without mar.
Mar 08

you forgot too, didn’t you?

It’s often forgotten that while the mouth doesn’t talk that your eyes do

It’s often forgotten that while they love you

you forget how much they could still leave 

It’s often forgotten that while i say i’m fine inside i’m dying

It’s often forgotten that while you want to help them out they’re probably facing their karma,

It’s often forgotten that while i’m eating my  body is having trouble breathing,

It’s often forgotten that while we say mistakes are fine we’re confining ourselves inside of a prison,

It’s often forgotten that while you’re smiling i’m still crying,

It’s often forgotten that while we say we are okay we don’t always have to lie.
 
Mar 08

2

but two half’s don’t make a whole 

and two scarred souls can’t make each other warm

because two broken heaters can’t melt the  ice in the room

i used to love you but yesterday is iold
Mar 08

it’s the end


it’s that moment when the shore is right there

i can finally rest after struggling to swim so far

it’s that moment when everything finally means something

i can now say that it all happened for a reason 

it’s that moment when after being so hungry you finally get to lay your eyes on a feast

i went through so much and i get to reward myself now

it’s that moment when my pain feels like it might actually stop

i’m getting close to the edge i can feel it

it’s that moment when the darkness finally recedes

i’m going to miss my old friend

it’s the moment when i can finally open my eyes and wake from my sleep

i can tell that reality is no longer bent





 
Feb 23
poem 0 comments challenge: Rhyme

just everyday burnout

i’m so tired 
the warmth in me is seeping from my soul
i just wanted to be admired
and reach that everlasting goal
but i burned out
and the audience still thinks i’m flowing tall
i wish they would let me back out
oh i just want to fall
because my candle is hollow now
and my wick is barely holding on
why can’t y’all see how
my flame is all ready gone
Feb 22

it was a rainbow


it looked unbelievable 

it was the black and white i saw when you gave my favorite mug back to me

it was the yellow i saw when i broke that painting of the daisy

it was the red i saw when i was vexed

it was the clear i saw when my eyes flooded with tears

it was the blue i saw when I gave you your old sweater

it was the green and purple i saw when i gave my necklace back to you

it was the orange i saw when you replanted your bell peppers at your house

it was the rainbow of colors that fluffed my vision
Feb 22

my old friend darkness

The darkness is creeping in

Yes it’s back again

But I don’t cry,

No, I just let it in

Because when I was down

And no one was around 

The darkness hugged me thin

It didn’t feed me lies 

Or taunt me with goodbyes

Or tell me I’m alright 

That it’s all in my head

No, the darkness didn’t say anything

It didn’t leave me guessing 

It didn’t have to because it knew that it would be back again

So I welcome it back with smiles

And I say, “Hello, darkness, I knew you’d be back agairn.”
 
Feb 22
poem 0 comments challenge: Fame

fame was just another bitter game

fame. 
it looked pretty when i saw it from the tv
who knew that i would be chasing the old me
it looked like it could be fun
it seems like all they do is laugh and run
but who would tell me it was fake
it’s crazy how just a minute ago i was waiting for my brake 
now all i do is sit and cry
all that i saw was just a lie
i want to go back
back to the past cause the present is in lack
Oct 15

i love feeling emotions

i love being happy

i love the warmth and the light bounce in my step

happiness always comes back; no matter how long you’ve been without it 

i love being sad

i love letting go of everything that’s been making things hard and letting myself deal

sadness isn’t something that you should suppress or bury; it’s normal

i love being mad

it riles me up like nothing else and it feels so good

anger isn’t something to be ashamed about it’s something meant to feel, re-think, and then move on

feeling emotions other than happiness is okay

Feeling emotions shouldn’t be taken for granted.

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