Dec 22

Life, an all too confusing message

I am tied up 
Stings pulling at my heart yet they
Squeeze tighter making it so I cannot breathe.
My eyes have no place to focus on
As the blame gets passed on between each person.
I have felt hate for myself
But what I cannot understand is how you could
Hate me more then I do myself.
How could you give me hell and expect
A thank you as if I was in heaven.
You know, I did try
I swam in the stars I gave them all a second chance
But you,
You always ended up throwing me back to square one.
You pushed me to stutter when he was all I wanted
You silenced my lips when all I needed to do was speak
You made me speak when it was time for silence.
What I did to you, life,
I don’t know.
Maybe, in the end, it was just me hurting my own heart.

 
Dec 11

Never Really Blue

She said you had blue eyes
But they really weren’t blue at all
They were the color
Of the mist of the ocean splashing onshore
They were the color of the rain
With the stormy sky as the background.
But they felt like home
They felt like the calm waves 
Rolling onto the bay
They felt like how you wrap your arms around
Me and protect me from the world.
When she said blue 
I thought blue, I felt blue
But your eyes were never really blue at all.
 



 
Dec 09

Silent night

Nov 27

Nowhere

Have you ever found yourself
Lost in a town
Where you knew everyone
But no one knew you.
That when it rained everyone
Ran inside but you
Stood in the storm with no place to go.

And all I ask is,
Can you take me away
Far from here,
Away from the dusted rain.
All I want is you tonight
To take me to the stars that promise the world.

And all I want is,
That when my legs wobble
And my world begins to crumble
You will carry me home
To the place I belong
To the place where I can be free.
To the place where I am me.

And all you need to know is,
Have you ever found yourself
Lost in a town
Where you knew everyone
But no one knew you.
That when it rained everyone
Ran inside but you
Stood in the storm with no place to go.


 
Nov 17

Letting Go

I wish I could let go,
I wish that when my tears fell
They took my thoughts with them.
My brain keeps mistaking itself for my heart
And maybe that is why I let you go.
I wish that my thoughts did not 
Hurt my heart
And make it suffer more.
I wish that when I do cry I would not feel
On the edge of a hundred-foot cliff.
I wish that when hurtful words struck 
My mind would look away
And understand the other person.
I wish that I could just wish my troubles away
On falling stars passing by the planet.
I wish I could let go
And close my eyes in peace. 
 
Nov 08

Snow

Nov 02

Two Waves Ashore

Two waves ashore
But my beating heart wants more
You took me in your arms and fell
Down to the ground but away from hell
Protected me from everyone
You were looking at me as if you had won.
Now as I stand in the teeming rain
My mind not body is still in pain.
Foggy clouds all over my eyes
My body, not mind is still hurt from those lies.
I run back to the sand once more 
To where those two waves came ashore.
Where you took me in your arms and fell
Down to the ground but away from hell.

 
Oct 28

Sun filled leaves

Open your eyes one last time
Before the flurries of winter come in
See the falling leaves filled with the sunshine
Drift down to your hands
Warmness spreads through your hand
Up your arms and to your heart
The remains of the summer sun now have touched you.
The mist around you and everyone else slowly clears up 
But only to come back the next morning.
In my mind, I know that a warm coffee is what I am craving
A small replacement for the summer sun
That can no longer reach me.
This is Fall a colorful season that will disappear before your eyes.
 
Oct 13

Beautiful

Who are you to say that the skies are grey
When beyond is a universe filled with stars.
Who are you to say
Those terrible things, to push away
Those of us that are different,
Because doing so you are
Shutting out the light so it's dark,
Taking away the rainbows so it's on dull color,
Casting away the ocean so it's just water,
Pushing the hearts of the innocent over the edge
So it's one last person you have to look at.
Who are you to sit there and say that I am ugly
When I am standing here trying to move past 
The daggers that have been thrown.
Sep 28

The Dark

I am scared of the dark
The feeling of emptiness
The not being able to see 
While I stumble down the stairs at 2 am.
To look up one day and see that 
Someone, You, are not there
Gone, lost to the rolling sea.
I am scared of the dark 
but not,
I am scared that my broken pieces
Would be lost, unfound in a park that everyone sees. 

 

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