I'm the kind of person who knows the names of all the countries in Europe and most of the ones in the whole world. I plan everything (except for spontaneity) and rely on calendars and notes to remind me what day it is which explains why I hate it when people round up time. I'm pretty convinced that my soul speaks french because each word I learn is like a treasure and sometimes at night I feel a pulling toward somewhere far away. I'm the girl in your class who everyone likes but isn't really best friends with anyone who loves politics and who everyone hates to go after during presentations. I can't braid hair or paint my fingernails to save my life and I'm no fashion icon but I love the clothes I wear (mostly) though I think I'm allergic to shopping (also skateboarding). I think being starstruck is overrated and demeaning
I know that every day away every step feels like a knife twisting deeper in our hearts each day I watch the rainfall from a broken window and wonder how I am ever going to choose to be away from you because I see myself in three years right beside you in our sashes and crying because I'll miss you but I'm so happy for us at the same time. I see us in decades coming back together and remembering laughing talking and eating cake but if I leave now I might miss a moment or I might be too scared to return. I don't want to go but what if each step away means another second of my dreams but then again, I built my dreams on you like stretched scaffolding speeding towards a cloudy sky. Please I can't see myself without you I can't be happy without you in my life. so promise me. if I leave make me come
Some days I feel like I'm choking on smoke, an entity beyond my imagination that captures my words and I have nothing to say. It's hard though when all you have is a window, a screen that flashes images of faces that you miss. The end feels a million miles away.
I'll miss you so much because you make me feel needed and when I'm around you I just want to smile because I can't believe how incredibly lucky I am to have had our paths cross and I hope you see how much I don't want to lose you and know that though our moment may be gone, like a wave, I will never stop coming back to you because this isn't goodbye it's only the beginning.