I prayed this day would never come.
​The day I said good bye.
You were my life.
My love.
My drive. 
I thought we were okay. 
You promised me you were okay.
I tired my best to keep you safe. 
Yet, you took the gun.
​I never saw you again.

​A suicide they said. 
A body found in the middle of the woods.
At first a missing persons case, now a tragic death.
I knew we were both broken.
​But that's what made us whole.
​You stitched me together, all my imperfections made perfect by your touch. 
​You healed my heart with every embrace. 
You made me believe again.

​Now you leave me here, alone and shattered. 
​My heart left in this grave. 
​If I could just have gotten one more day,
​One more day. 

You promised you were fine. 
​You promised you would talk to me!
You promised you would get help!
Were my words not enough?
Was our love not enough to live for?
​You took my world and broke it apart.
​Leaving me to pick up the pieces. 

​I knew you were hurting. 
​I knew you were dead inside. 
​But you know what, I was too!
You selfishly took your life without thinking of me!
​Did you even think of me when you took that gun?
​Did you even think of us when you pulled that trigger?

​When I had woken up that morning, you were not there.
​I walked downstairs and called you name, but you never called back.
A note left on the kitchen table: 
"Went for a walk, be back later:)"
"Later" I had thought. "He will be back soon" 
But that later never came.
That later became a forever.
​
​I cried for days for you!
Until I couldn't breath.
​I know you'll never leave me now,
​your ghost haunts me forever.

​I still love you through and through.
I'll love you till me heart runs out. 
I stand here now, without you here.
​Alone. 
​Now it's just you, me, and an open grave.