cheeks slick with tears
and hurt, my hands shake
as i try to reach
for the stars you once
wanted so badly to be ours.

my smile, once sticky
with blue cotton candy 
happiness, is now empty,
littered with shards of broken
love and promises.

i exhale, my peppermint
breath glowing against the
toxic air as my 
mind goes blank.

i look up at the
man on the moon, 
and as he smiles at me,
my eyes only see you.

your face haunts me,
your memory banging on
my door every morning,
but i say nothing
and pray to god that you
don’t hear me crying.

my hands tremble as
i use string the color of your
honey blond curls to
stitch the pieces of my
heart back together, but the
glass shards dig into
my hands until i bleed.

my tears taste of blue
cotton candy and happiness,
so i cry, hoping that
they will make me feel better.

i sit on the beach and 
watch waves the color
of your eyes crash into 
the sandy coast,
and try to go numb as
i listen to the mournful cries
of the seagulls, 
beckoning me to 
the sky.