Poetry

Fight

Fight back with your words not your aggression

Fight back with love not hate

Fight back with joy not drama

Birds fly through the sky.

Black against gray clouds

Though they’re bright

Red,

Yellow,

Blue

Up close if you stop and look.

Robins pecking for worms after the rain,

I chase this dream

With everything I have.

I want to be with it

Every step of the way.

From the moment I first touched it

To where my fingertips grazed actual possibility

To where my heart broke

I want to live

Inside your head.

I want to be where

They can't hurt me.

I want to live where you are

I want to stay in the sunlight

I want to dance among the stars.

I want to live in your fantasy

We cheer and shake our cowbells, waving at passing cars. 

Sometimes they roll down their windows, clapping and cheering back.

Sometimes they roll their eyes and look away, avoiding eye contact.

I'm not drowning in water, but words.

A feeling comparable to what I imagine standing under a waterfall feels like.

The longer you stand there, the more painful and heavy it gets.

I need to write so badly because all this anger and fear are sticking to my skin like an anxiety sweat

and yet I can't seem to make any phrases and stanzas that are understandable outside of my head

The sun is bright and warm against my skin...

The clouds are big and fluffy...

The flowers are just starting to bloom...

The petals are every color you could ever imagine...

Pink, purple, blue....

I’ve always loved

The feeling of falling
 

But being dragged down

Is different
 

Feeling unbalanced

Lost
 

Losing control

As life speeds by
 

Feeling helpless

I hate the way

Skinny is now a synonym for pretty

Pretty a synonym for happy

Happy a synonym for enough

Enough is something we will never be

i sit and stare out the window

stare out the window at the brown dead grass

the dirty snow melting into muddy slush

the mud that is criss-crossed and destroyed with ruts and tire tracks

You, like sugar, I desire. 

You, like sugar crystals, shine in the light.  

You, like sugar, make me high. 

And you, like sugar, make me crash.