was/n't

Thank god I wasn’t born
In 1934
To set the dining room table 
serving mister corporate job

I would be 81
When they finally announced the news
Would have already be trapped in 
Been a housewife has-been

Feminist fatalities
And climate change catastrophes
Chemical attacks
Never get my teen years back
Lived through four wars by 1999
Lost my best friend crying on the front lines

Then again I was born
In 2004
To be in debt because of college
On track to be an alcoholic

I was 11
When they finally announced the news
Naive and confused
At least that’s what they assumed

School shooting fatalities
And climate change catastrophes
Terrorist attacks
Never get my teen years back
Lived through a war, lasted longer than I was born
Heard my friend killed herself didn’t shed a tear

ellenb

NY

YWP Alumni

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    Did you make me not believe? 
    By design?
    By anguish?
    You, the divine creator,
    how could you make me this way?
    Question
    after
    Question.
    And yet you never answer because
    I know
    you do not exist,