To be so desperate

To be so desperate 
to lift your baby in the air
so the army can take it
and save its life
to give up your infant
so it can have a better life
so it can have a life

To hide at home 
to hide your face
so they can't hurt you
but they find a way to hurt you
they find a way to suck life and joy out of this world
till we are all too scared to move

not being able to leave 
the place 
with the people 
that will terrorize you
without a second thought
not even caring about the life
they ruined
by ending 

all you can do is hope
but you wish so desperately you could do more
you want to do SOMETHING 
till you scream into the dark night 
to be so desperate 

 

queenlalaladaisy

VT

14 years old

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  • Separation

    Why does the rain 
    tap on the window
    when you can't feel it?
    Why will it remind you of 
    the dew drops dancing on the grass blades in early spring,
    of August's ocean breeze spraying saltwater in your hair, 

  • Empty

    The person is empty 
    the person with no identity 
    the one with no personality 
    Who doesn't now what yesterday was like or the day before
    Know one seems to know this person anymore 
  • Understanding

    Somewhere in my past
    a sunny snow day haunts me
    the serenity 
    Feels too cliche 
    to enjoy
    I remember the glances out of the window
    on a day that finally feels like spring 
    because winter can be long and dark