Reflection

I avoid my reflection most days 

Because when I look at myself I break

I know I am beautiful 

That’s not the problem

The girl standing in that mirror isn’t me

She’s confident and smart and has her life together

She’s a shell, a shield

I’m not her

I’m me

I’m afraid

I avoid my reflection most days

Because I’m scared about who I am

I’m not a girl

I’m not a “her”

I’m not a “she”

Stop calling me a girl, she, a women

That’s not who I am

I don’t care if you’re queer too

That doesn’t make it okay

I don’t care your dysphoria isn’t that bad

Your dysphoria isn’t mine

Look with more your eyes 

Stop and look at my soul 

Not my chest, not my hair, not my face

That doesn’t reflect me

I am ME

I wake up sometimes and wish I hadn’t

I avoid my reflection most days 

Because I’m stuck in a body that isn’t mine

I’m stuck

I’m trapped

I look to the stars ad wish to be one of them

In the sky, without a reflection of gender

I see my reflection

And I break inside

But I wish you could see who I am

I’m not the old me

I’m not a girl

I’m not a reflection

I’m me

I’m not a reflection I’m a person

Understand that my reflection isn’t me

I avoid my reflection most days because of what you see in it

Let me see me in my reflection