bleach in the washer.

I was doing the laundry 
pondering
how I could possibly tell you 
when I dumped the bleach 
in the load of dark clothing 
i turned on the washer -
walked in 
on the first day
and your smile
seemed to melt all my darkness away-
later 
i came back and found everything splotchy 
tshirts and cardigans
polyester and cotton 
-raindrops splattered the window panes
as i struggled not to cry that day 
and you simply looked at me and said hi 
and melted my sad away-
I look down at the laundry I've ruined
by my ignorance 
unknowingly destroying what i had
-I sit in my bedroom 
denial rearing its head
as i simply think "no!"
"I can't be in love with my best friend!" 
so I go downstairs to do something simple
to take my mind off of the pain 
and I decide
to wash all my dirty
dark colored laundry
to help melt the hurt away. 

 

Inkpaw

VT

18 years old

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