I Waited For Something

It's like the world was made to push me down
It's like it wants to test me
I've tried to push back against it
But weight will always win against hope

I watched the rain come down 
In ecstasy, that it would wash me away
I wanted to feel what it was like to be pushed
Into a different time, a different place, a different world

I saw the sun set on Thursday
And it was calm and tinged with red
Sometimes I will underestimate myself
But there's always a different perspective

I waited for something to come and call me forward
And tell me that I was ready
But it's April and all I can see is 
The happiness in someone else's eyes

I closed my eyes and thought about what it is like to feel right
And I fell asleep wondering if I would ever be good enough.

Now I know all I want to do is make you happy,
But maybe
We can be happy together.