Lucky

To all the people out there who have never suffered from a mental illness.
You are so fucking lucky.
You are so lucky that you don't have to experience the feeling of waking up,
After weeks of freedom,
to feel like you can't pull yourself out of bed.
To be prisoner to yourself once again.
To feel like everything is 
Void of meaning.
To be numb,
Even when you are in love.
To feel physical pain,
Because yes,
A simple chemical imbalance
Can cause body pain.
To have things you love,
Become lack-luster. 
To feel as though the brightest of colors,
Are dull.
To be drained of energy,
Even after sleeping or 14 hours.
To be in a haze.
To think that just as you are making progress,
For it to resurface.
To have an episode on a good day. 
To have the bad days out number the good days,
For weeks.
To be brought to your knees by a deficiency in serotonin.
To have it keep you there,
If you let it.
So,
To the people without a mental illness,
Don't you ever take it for fucking granted.
Because you can go through life and never have to stumble with your mental stability. 
Mean while, 
Some of use struggle to keep putting one foot in front of the other.