Going haywire

No matter how much I hate you

And curse at your name

I still hold the fear that

I am to blame

Even if everyone believed me
And cast you away

I’d still miss

Every good day

Even though I hate you

With every part of me

There is still a space 

That you left empty

A longing I have

That someone will come and erase the shit we had

But no one has

And now I’ve lost friends

I hope that this ends

People think I’m a liar

My wrists are on fire
My brain won’t function

My body won’t move

What else, what else will I lose?