Numbness

Growing up,

I saw the other kids laugh,

Cry, be angry, and feel emotions

But…

I never did that,

I never felt that they called:

Happy, sadness, anger

All I felt was…

Empty

All I felt was a hole

where I thought

My heart was supposed to be.

I knew that wasn’t normal,

The other kids started at me differently,

I heard them talk about me

“Why is she so creepy”

And so I figured that it was easier to

Pretend

To pretend to be normal

However…

I still desperately tried to fill that hole

I did anything

And would do everything

It didn’t work,

Nothing worked,

So I wake up

Every morning to put on a mask

The mask,

The mask I hide behind

To hide from the stares

The whispers

The world