Edmond stood on the dock, staring down at the water below him. His pale blonde hair blew lightly in the wind, and his clear emerald green eyes were glassy with tears, something that was not usual. He had simply been trying to distract his mind by meeting up with his friends at a beach house. He had been perfectly fine until one of his friends asked about the recent tragedy, the murder of his brother, Damien, who had been his best friend since the moment they were able to vaguely comprehend the existence of others. Edmond was the younger brother, only by a few hours. He and Damien had been so close, they never went anywhere without each other. They had occasional arguments, but they were quickly resolved because the two just couldn’t bear to be apart. Damien was always well-liked and had friends. Edmond was extremely shy but just as polite. Damien was the better looking one, in Edmond’s opinion. Damien had light brown hair with a few natural streaks of dirty blonde in it and dazzling eyes as blue as the ocean.
Just thinking about his brother caused the tears in Edmond’s eyes to well up and slowly tumble down his cheeks. He swiped away the tears and exhaled softly. He had told his friends moments before that he wanted to go take pictures of the ocean. He mostly had used that as an excuse to get away so they wouldn’t see him cry. He had his camera slung around his neck, but he had yet to pick it up and take any photos. Edmond had fleeting thoughts of just stepping a little closer to the edge and calmly let himself fall in. He imagined himself crashing into the calm water, the salt stinging his eyes until he finally closed them, letting himself drift down as he just held his breath until everything faded into a peaceful darkness and he would see Damien again.
Edmond blinked the thought away quickly. He couldn’t give up just because he was in pain, he couldn’t do such a selfish thing to his parents. Pulling out his earbuds, he turned on music and closed his eyes. Music was his lifeline, it always had been.
“I’m stuck in the sunshine riptide, dancing all alone in the morning light.”
He sighed and closed his eyes, letting the music distract his mind and bring him to a happy place. He knew his happiness would not last, but he didn’t care. Even fleeting happiness was enough to him. After listening to the music for a while, he put away his earbuds and turned his back to the ocean. Walking down the wooden dock, he felt more calm. Sad, yes, but calm. He stepped off the dock onto the soft sand, walking back towards the house. He knew Damien would not want him to be sad, so he tried his best to stay positive. Staring up at the blue sky, he told himself it was just like Damien’s eyes. Maybe Damien was watching over him up there. That put a smile on his face. Small tears of joy filled his eyes as he stood there, lips parting to utter three simple words.
“I love you.”