I’m sometimes asked if I would want to go out with friends.
Or if I would like to come to this party.
Or if I would just like to hang out with people in general.
I don’t like new people
It’s nothing personal, really it isn’t
I’m socially awkward and being around new people
Physically drains me
I had to talk to new people for a day
During a music festival,
I was utterly exhausted for the rest of the night,
Because I had to go so far out of my comfort zone
Just to talk to a few new people
Unlike mostly everyone else,
Being around people isn’t exhilarating or fun for me
I prefer to be alone
I’m simply not a people person
So, I end up making an excuse
Oh, I have family stuff that day
Oh, I’m sick
Oh, my mom says that I can’t go
Contrary to popular belief,
I’m not lonely,
I just greatly prefer to BE ALONE.
And some people just don’t understand that.
People have tried to change me,
Tried to tell me that I just need to be more outgoing
But those are the people that really don’t understand
Don’t understand that if I could’ve I would’ve changed
Do they think that I’m choosing to have social activities draining?
Do they think I’m choosing to have social anxiety?
Do they think I’m choosing to like being alone?
I would choose feel more comfortable being out
And around other people
But I can’t
I’m just not like that