The substance of guilt and the choice of two.
Truth or Dare, exposure or risk.
The object in my chest tightend to brick,
it did nothing better than jamming and overloading my brain with everything it couldn't hold.
Truth or Dare, the thought of it clogged my mouth of a response,
and drought covered my tongue whole.
Haziness swifted throughout my sight and drowned my human core of all of its energy.
Of all its life.
Everyone knows that when it comes to decision making.. I'm not the one to battle with.
So NO Truth or Dare.
NO exposure or risk.
Just the agony of guillt that gradually spreads,
seeps, and soaks into my conscience. My insides.
To break every single bit and part of me that aches.
The decision of not making a decision that shuts off everything in me,
to leave me in dust.
To leave me with nothing.
Truth or Dare, exposure or risk.
The object in my chest tightend to brick,
it did nothing better than jamming and overloading my brain with everything it couldn't hold.
Truth or Dare, the thought of it clogged my mouth of a response,
and drought covered my tongue whole.
Haziness swifted throughout my sight and drowned my human core of all of its energy.
Of all its life.
Everyone knows that when it comes to decision making.. I'm not the one to battle with.
So NO Truth or Dare.
NO exposure or risk.
Just the agony of guillt that gradually spreads,
seeps, and soaks into my conscience. My insides.
To break every single bit and part of me that aches.
The decision of not making a decision that shuts off everything in me,
to leave me in dust.
To leave me with nothing.
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aesythe
Jun 24, 2019
An interesting topic here - not Truth or Dare in itself, but the way you used it to talk about your difficulty with decision making. It's a problem for me too. This sounds like a joke, but I've been known to squat down at the grocery store and spend 5 minutes considering which box of cereal would be the best purchase... No matter WHAT the choice in question is, that sense that you're about to close yourself off from something can be debilitating. You've expressed that effectively here for people who might not understand. Whether it was intentional or not, your contrast of words like "drowned" and "soaked" with "drought" and "dust" also shows your skill as a writer.