Jan 09

anxiety

anxiety attacks you like an angry swarm of bees.
makes it so you can't move
you are frozen
and terrified out of your mind.
but for me,
anxiety possesses me.
moves my hand to my scalp
so i can pluck out hairs.
i am a trichster
with a terrible disease
with no cure
and you can't stop it
it's called trichotillomania
i am not alone
yet i feel alone
​because no one understands
not even my therapist.
but i feel ashamed
for some reason
of this thing i have
of my anxiety
of the bald spot i ahve
that's not even visible 
unless i point it out.