Looking up

I look up at the sky
thats shaded with grey
the sun peeking out
is it going to rain
or are the clouds just deceiving us
and theres no where to sit so I'm standing
til my feet give in 
and I collapse onto the wet ground
thoughts racing through my head
Thoughts that should remain thoughts
and never be said
for the fear of being judged or criticized 
and shamed
for an opinion, a little thought
I could go inside
and retreat into my bedroom
yet I stay put
still staring at the clouds
who could go anywhere
with nothing holding them down
and for a second I'm envious, of a cloud
a cloud, one of manny
im still looking up
just an ordinary girl
staring at the sky
on a hill 
until it rains