some times when I write

I try to work out of the box.

but it never seems to work out
even though it was a good thought.

maybe its the formatting
or the ideas I pour out.

and then when I get praise for a poem I didn't try too hard on
I wonder why the ones I put effort into don't succeed as well.

I'm not trying to complain.
I just want to know

why I get praise for a piece

that just appeared out of thin air.
It makes me feel as if I haven't tried when I write out of the blue.

even though
they convey emotions that are raw. 

but I don't experience any of those emotions.

maybe I'm doing something wrong.

for the time being I'll keep refining my poems.

because that's the first step to getting it right.