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Sep 10
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nine-eleven

to think that i will be a legal adult tomorrow.
i could vote. i could buy fish at petsmart.
i could apply to places like aldi's and tractor supply.

my birthday, for me, has always been tinged with sadness.
how am i supposed to be happy on a day of tragedy?
looking at the news, it's all the same footage, all the same photos.

honestly, i did not think i would live this long.
i was banking on something happening so i wouldn't have to be an adult.
i am not ready. i do not think i am ready. i still do not feel as if i am ready.

i wanted to be a child for a while. to be sheltered, so i wouldn't have to grow up.
so i wouldn't have to learn and become someone.
i should be panicking, shouldn't i? or be excited?

i don't know what to do, but i'll learn.
that's something i can do.
i'll learn as much as i can about being human.
Posted: 09.10.20
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  1. Sep 10, 2020

    Happy almost-birthday!! I love the mixed feelings and meaning you convey in this poem, you've written this so well!

  1. Sep 10, 2020

    thank you so much! :)

    "i'm me, nothing more, nothing less! i'm me!" - shinji ikari

  1. Sep 10, 2020

    what a great last line. Happy almost birthday! I'm still a few months away but I also have these thoughts about having to become someone and the responsibility that comes with it. The best part though, obviously, is being able to buy fish at petsmart, I'm very exited for this now.

    "If there's a book that you want to read, but it hasn't been written yet, then you must write it." - Toni Morrison

  1. Sep 10, 2020

    thanks so much. yeah, turning 18 feels so strange. but, yeah, i get to get a fish though so :) it's all good

    "i'm me, nothing more, nothing less! i'm me!" - shinji ikari

  1. Sep 10, 2020

    I agree with treblemaker. I just turned 17 and I am facing senior year and its absolutely terrifying I can already feel my childhood slipping through my fingers. You captured that empty desperation very well.

  1. Sep 10, 2020

    try to enjoy senior year the best you can! it might be hard, and it's definitely strange knowing you're older than you were 12 years ago - wow, that was so long ago - and i don't know about you, but i constantly thought about being younger this past year. it was kind of sad, it still is, but we all need to grow up sometime. it'll be okay, though, i promise.

    "i'm me, nothing more, nothing less! i'm me!" - shinji ikari

  1. Sep 10, 2020

    thanks, that's nice to hear.