I stand waiting 
in front 
of a little cafe 
(it's my first date)
the one downtown
(it's my first date)
on church street 
(it's my first date)
with the purple awning
(IT'S my first date)
excited 
(IT'S my FIRST date)
tapping my foot
(IT'S my FIRST date)
twisting the hairtie on my wrist
(IT'S my FIRST date)
skirt of my burnt orange dress blowing in the wind
(IT'S MY FIRST date)
hair pulled into a braid down my back
(IT'S MY FIRST date)
gold snake necklace and earrings
(IT'S MY FIRST DATE)
I look nice
(IT'S MY FIRST DATE!)
I gaze up at the sky
(IT'S MY FIRST DATE!!)
blue 
(IT'S MY FIRST DATE!!!)
with wispy clouds
she sneaks up behind me
BOO
she says gripping my shoulders
wow look at you
You're too fancy for me
she says
I look at her
jeans
t-shirt
ponytail
NO
sorry
I say
NO
sorry
I say again
NO
I did it wrong again
NO
how do I keep doing wrong
NO
I try so hard
NO
goodbye
I say
NO
I'm going home
I say
NO
I'm home
NO
in my room
NO
it was my first date
NO
I messed it up
NO
nothing good ever happens when I wear nice clothes