I’m finally happy without you

I finally found someone who laughs at my jokes 
I finally found someone who makes me feel like a star
I wish I wasn’t constantly at a crossroads, 

When may I rest. 

When may I relieve myself of this weight 

When will this exhaustion leave me? 

When will there be a clean cutoff?

When will this overwhelming ocean finally drown me?

                 - Tell me when