I am not

 Take showers in the blank stares of strangers 

For everything I have lived is forbidden 

The present no less sour than the past  

I am built on a plaintive mountain of emptiness 

With the broken bones of those who jumped before me 

Their reflections of pain can be seen in my eyes 

You left me drowning in a red sea of emotion

Making me map out the stars to predict your impossible current 

I remember the invisible stream

Broken free from my split chest