My secret name is Anxious Ashlyn
It's the name I call myself when I think no one else is looking
It would make for a pretty bad superhero
I lost the word hero
Or at least the word no longer applies to me
I used to think I was a good friend
But I lost that too
By forgetting friends birthdays
By not being there for them in a time of need
By disappointing them
I tried not to but it was hard
A few have stuck around but most have left
It's hard when you wake up in the early hours of the morning
Feeling sick mentally, like there's a demon in your mind
It hurts worse than losing your childhood innocence
The innocence I once had has slowly drifted away
Leaving me here as a moody negative teenager
I wish I could go back to the good times
When I hadn't lost the word hero or brave
When I still had the words light, outgoing, and generous
I just don't think they belong to me anymore
I lost them through the years as I grew up
Like how I lost my straight hair, and my love for swim team
But I guess that's how growing up works
You lose words and feelings, and the little things that matter
All good things must come to an end
It's the name I call myself when I think no one else is looking
It would make for a pretty bad superhero
I lost the word hero
Or at least the word no longer applies to me
I used to think I was a good friend
But I lost that too
By forgetting friends birthdays
By not being there for them in a time of need
By disappointing them
I tried not to but it was hard
A few have stuck around but most have left
It's hard when you wake up in the early hours of the morning
Feeling sick mentally, like there's a demon in your mind
It hurts worse than losing your childhood innocence
The innocence I once had has slowly drifted away
Leaving me here as a moody negative teenager
I wish I could go back to the good times
When I hadn't lost the word hero or brave
When I still had the words light, outgoing, and generous
I just don't think they belong to me anymore
I lost them through the years as I grew up
Like how I lost my straight hair, and my love for swim team
But I guess that's how growing up works
You lose words and feelings, and the little things that matter
All good things must come to an end
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