pendant

i can’t speak to you without my chest clenching for fear that my missteps will prove me to be the person i couldn’t bear for you to see
so much so that i no longer see myself

how ridiculous. how absolutely pathetic that i should begin to behave this way consciously
and continue to do so because of the shelter i crave
which i have found in you so effortlessly

that it would be easier to fall and break before consuming anything to dull the taste
of bitterness that lingers on my tongue 
after i tell you 

in exuberant shouts
that i love you
and know it is true
 
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    as if i could have somehow known
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