Dear Loneliness

Dear loneliness,

It’s me again. 

I guess I’m coming back to you after all. 

You know, it’s strange.

Even when I’m surrounded by a group of 

five, 

ten, 

or even a hundred people,

I still feel this emptiness inside of me. 

This sorrow. 

This…

loneliness. 

I’ve tried everything to make it feel like I belong.

I’ve changed 

the way I speak, 

the way I act, 

the way I dress.

But do I fit in? 

No.

It’s simply a mask,

a facade, 

a shield that is hiding my true self. 

Maybe I would rather be lonely. 

But I guess I’m not really alone 

if I have you.

You’re shrouded in a veil of sadness and despair,

but when you connect with me, that all disappears. 

I guess it's because

we have each other. 

So, I guess what I wanted to say is

thank you. 

For accepting me with open arms when I felt like my world was breaking down. 

For wiping my tears away when no one else was there to do so.

For brushing the dust off of my shoulders and putting me back onto my feet after I fell down. 

Soon, I will leave you once again. 

But I know you are lurking around in the shadows 

until the time comes when I’ll need you 

to squeeze me tight,

dry my eyes, 

and tell me everything will be alright once again. 

Until that time comes, loneliness,

Yours Truly