Burning Hurt

I can't CONTROL it.
I suck my lips in as my heart clenches in
every time a hot tear trickles down my face. 
Why?
My hurt gets so angry with me that it sets my insides on fire.
Tears, as if lava, drips down my face as I try to hold it in.
I CAN'T. 
Everyone, everything, this house, my thoughts,
my life, my head, my heart, my hurt. 
My teeth start to grind as if clenching them
was going to shatter them whole.


And then it stops.
It stops as I stare out of my thoughts.
Blank.
And then nothing. nothing at all. 
All the hurt is gone, everything is forgotten.
I don't feel anything.
It's all gone.
I can smile now,
because nothing is wrong. 


 
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shenneljolly

VA

19 years old

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