Enough

You tell me I’m not enough

I’m unproductive

I’m insignificant

I’m useless

So I tried a little harder

I studied more

I brought my grades up

I became more organized

I pushed myself to do better

I did everything I could

To make you proud

I know I might seem useless

Weak and small compared to your achievements

But I tried

I tried so hard to be like you

We’re so similar 

It almost feels like you’re the better version of me

You can tell me I’m not enough

But you don’t know

What it feels like

To hold the world in your hands

To watch it all fall apart

Leaving you broken

In the depths of despair

Trying to find a way out of this abyss

Begging on your scraped knees

For forgiveness

For a way out of this cruel world

A cruel world you became familiar with too soon

So when you say I’m not enough

Do you know what I’ve been through

Do you know how hard I try

Every day is a struggle

To be okay

To keep up with you

To be happy

To feel normal again

To be confident

Every day is a struggle

To be enough.