No bows

I want to pull the ribbon of my emotions
My thoughts and feelings 
Out through my mouth 
And tie it
In a beautiful bow 
But each time I reach
Into that well between my chin and collarbone 
All I pull out is tangled string 
That’s unruly and thin 
It’s the kind of string
You can’t tie bows with 
And I am infuriated that my tongue stumbles 
Over the knotted syllables 
And fumbles blindly 
With the mangled social skills 
I wish 
To tie a bow with my words
That I want to flow 
From my mouth 
But all I have is a heap of intwined threads 
That lie at my feet 
And mock me instead.
 

Inkpaw

VT

18 years old

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  • The Boxes In The Corner

    Looming over your shoulders

    Each stack higher than its former

    Every thought and every scrap

    Of an idea too scared to ponder

     

    Every moment that hurt

    Each minute that lingered longer

  • Inadequacy


    How do I push the words out
    From behind my taffy tongue 
    Thick with salty tears 
    And full of grubby thumb 


    I’m a child 
    Pretending that I’m numb 
    To escape the overwhelming feelings 

  • Paper Frogs

    Why

    When feet fall soft but quick 

    Does the hallway extend

    And the hot breath of whoever’s behind me feel hotter 

    Why do I stay pressed to the wall 

    Like a stubborn gruby sticker