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fever dreams
we scream in our sleep
until our lungs are thin
and decaying, the only
things keeping you from hearing
me are the paper thin walls i have built
around me.
every night, i close my eyes, -
only the ghosts know us
it's not so lonely anymore, facedown
on the hardwood floor, listening to the
ghosts whisper their secrets in my ear
until i fall asleep.
i've been talking to you in
my dreams, and it's made me lose -
fading as we kill
when i reach for you, the world
just starts spinning again, like i have
been pushed out of focus, like i always am.
am i looking at you, or am i
just dreaming again? my body is numb
as the lights flood my vision, your -
feed me to the longing minds once more
they will ask why i lock
the door at night and i will
tell them it's because i am a creature
of habit, soft and unready for the monsters
that claw at my bedframe in
the early hours of the morning. -
the importance of existing
a hand holds my thigh, and for
the first time in months, i feel as
if i can feel myself returning to existence.
it’s such a big word, existing,
it’s such a hard thing to do, but
8 billion unhappy creatures crawl -
supposedly
i love you more than i planned,
i think to myself late at night as i
stare into nothingness for hours on end.
i let you hold me for longer than
you were supposed to, and sometimes,
it hurts so bad that i lock myself in a cage