I used to see and dream in color
before all the days seemed to blend together
before staying awake became a chore
and trying to sleep became a war
between my irrational thoughts
and the black and green clock
on my nightstand
I would make up worlds and stories and plans in my mind
a fantasy of leaves and trees and people I thought would never leave me behind
now all that's left is a shadow of what I used to be
dark replaced my worlds of brilliant hues once filled with life though I was still the same to some degree
I still spent hours and days on plans but this time instead of plans of friends and family and fun
they were plans of escape and survival and trying to figure out when and where to run
you see, I used to see and dream in color
now I am lucky to have the world in black and white as I try to get through another
day another hour I no longer dream of anything but that's ok as long as I survive
I made a promise to someone I don't break promises so I will stay alive
until I can dream in color once again
before all the days seemed to blend together
before staying awake became a chore
and trying to sleep became a war
between my irrational thoughts
and the black and green clock
on my nightstand
I would make up worlds and stories and plans in my mind
a fantasy of leaves and trees and people I thought would never leave me behind
now all that's left is a shadow of what I used to be
dark replaced my worlds of brilliant hues once filled with life though I was still the same to some degree
I still spent hours and days on plans but this time instead of plans of friends and family and fun
they were plans of escape and survival and trying to figure out when and where to run
you see, I used to see and dream in color
now I am lucky to have the world in black and white as I try to get through another
day another hour I no longer dream of anything but that's ok as long as I survive
I made a promise to someone I don't break promises so I will stay alive
until I can dream in color once again
Comments
Log in or register to post comments.