Loss

In the span of two months, 
I lost 4 people.

In late May, the love of my life passed away.
He is my world, 
My everything.
My other half.
The only person who knows every piece of me-
The good, and the bad.
He is the only person who knows all of my past.
He is the only person who accepts me for who I am.
He is the only person who has seen the real me,
And not run away.
He not only accepts me, but he loves me. 
Truly loves me.
Just as I love him.
He is my world, my everything,
Just as I am his.
The day that I join you couldn't come too soon.

In June, I lost 3 people.
The first being my best friend.
So many laughs and inside jokes,
Serious moments,
And not-so-serious ones.
All of them memories I will carry for the remainder of my life.
I hope I was as good a friend to you as you were to me.
I'm sorry for ending it this way,
But it needed to be done.
I need the support of my best friend during this time,
I didnt want to say that, 
I didnt want to bother you, and waste your time.
These words are those that I haven't the courage to say to you.
I know that I hurt you,
Just dont forget that you hurt me too.
I should have said so sooner,
It would have saved a lot of pain and anger.
What I'm trying to say is I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for being so difficult to be friends with.
I'm sorry for having so many rough edges.
I'm sorry that this is the end of it all.
You were a great friend to me.
I hope I was at least half as good of a friend as you were to me.

The second person I lost is a family member.
Blood is thicker than water.
Family is supposed to stick together.
We never lived in the same house, or the same state.
Never really had a steady contact either.
Only seen each other like 7 times.
It was only this year that we began to talk.
You gave me advice on how to survive highschool.
We talked about what life was like in college too.
Our conversations ranged from various topics,
A friendship was built- not close, not deep.
But a friendship all the same.
Until it all came crashing down.
Same mother, different fathers.
You're 5 years older,
Prettier, smarter, popular.
But you're still my sister. 
And that friendship was important to me.
I thought it was to you too.

The third person is a friend I've known for years.
Not best friends, but close.
Always there, even when no one else was.

Sometimes friends out grow each other,
The end seems too soon, 
But if there's one thing I learned in June,
Its that not all friendships are meant to last.
Sad but true,
there's nothing else one can do except make the most of every minute.